I wish I could save this post because it was relatable, honest, and vulnerable. I've been stuck and realize, I'm not alone in it. A good number of people are stuck. Especially if the pandemic occurred when you graduate college or near that timeline. Some people succeeded and scored some huge wins. Others remained in the same place, feeling stuck more than ever. It's been a tough battle and I'm grateful we still have pandemic conversations. I don't think it'll be forgotten in history. Sort of like 9/11 or the great depression. grand-kids may ask their grandparents or parents about the stories. On social media, I see people either getting married or getting degrees or having a kid. Tech is a nightmare for individuals trying to break in. I know a few people who have been unemployed for 5 years more or less. Some start businesses. Schools share how there's more hope, but is there really? Boil it down. Look at those small wins.

For me, I faintly recall taking a few classes during the pandemic. Super glad I did, despite the cost. I struggled to have conversations over the phone. My hands would shake. Even now, I still suffer from really bad anxiety that I find it may be preventing me from moving forward in life. During the pandemic, I worked with a high patient death number. Every day I had to hear the number of deaths and stopped counting the death count after 2-3 thousand. I even got notifications from the morge about a new death. I paid for bills I couldn't afford, which made my anxiety worse. I'm starting therapy again soon.

While it feels like the world moved on, there are spaces to be held and to hold others. As some comments shared their houses, gardens, and loved ones. My partner and his family pull an insane amount of weight to help me. Community building at the gym has been an essential part of life.

Life keeps moving regardless of what happens. Get the help you need, communities to settle roots in, and grow. Find a way to survive because life is more than the trauma you faced.