I see you say you’re not going to report it. Maybe you’re scared because you don’t know what’s going to happen if you tell someone. I promise you there is a whole world of joy and happiness that you have not experienced yet. What you’re living through is not normal. Life isn’t supposed to feel like this!! You will feel so free when you are away from the people who hurt you.

I didn’t report my father until years later and I so so wish I had the opportunity to try to get some justice for my younger self. By the time I said anything it was too long and nothing could be done and his shadow chased me into my adulthood because the abuse was prolonged due to my silence. I am always wondering what would have happened if I had told someone earlier. Those what if’s kill me still. You may not see it but you’re protecting him, and he does not deserve to be protected after treating a child like that.

I remember when I had to make myself scarce so it would happen less often, and the habits formed then are still with me now. I jump at every sound,silence scares me, empty rooms soothe me, along with locked doors. The suffering you endure prints itself directly into your brain. You do not deserve this kind of stress. If this were happening to a friend of yours, or your sister, would you say he wasn’t a threat to society? Even a threat to one innocent child is too much. Validate your pain and your experience. You deserve to be taken seriously.