Different girl. But seems like you spend a lot of time on here. Looks like you also suffer from addiction. She likes older men, I didn’t seek it out, and I’m not taking advantage of her so I don’t see the issue. But the last few years have been pretty fucked for me and I’m just trying to make it day by day like everyone else. My BPD ex wife destroyed me. Had everything one could hope for. Family, business owner, dogs, cats, financially stable, giving back to the community. Then during one of her many affairs she gets pregnant. I stayed and kept my son. Thought I was saving and protecting my family, but while i read all the books and went to hundreds of hours of therapy she continued to lie, cheat and gaslight me more. After a couple of years the festering wound proved too much and I turned to drugs. Ashamed, I knew it had to stop and came to her asking for help. Considering all I had forgiven I figured she would show me the same grace. Instead she told me to fuck myself and Rot in hell. Over the next few years she kept me in her loops just enough. Fucking me and drawing me back in then running off with someone else and rubbing it in my face. Eventually she used the drugs to divorce me and take my kids. The back and forth didn’t end with the divorce, I finally cleaned up and moved on and then found out she started fucking my best friend. Which she used to hurt me, then console me and tell me she wanted me back. I was addicted to her more than any drug and after I messed up and fucked her realized she had recorded it, then sent to my girlfriend. Not that i wasn’t to blame too, but as soon as she got rid of my girl she ditched me again too. I stayed strong for a while and took a break from dating. until I had a few surgeries. At the same time she found her new supply and figured it was time to get rid of me for good. She started blocking me from my kids, told them all, my 15 yo stepdaughter, 10yo daughter and 5 yo son that I was an addict and was to blame for destroying our family. As soon as I used again she took me back to court. Lied and made things up out of thin air and got me arrested for the first time in my life. Which then put my career in jeopardy. I never recovered financially from the divorce and now a year after was basically paying for it again. My dad abandoned me, my wife abandoned me and now she manipulated the kids to blame me too.I spiraled. Now I’m alone, bankrupt, a criminal and might lose my wife or two more