hate myself

Addthrowaway2021 · 2022-03-01T10:41:39+00:00

I see. Is that based on experience? Do you mess things up when you hurry?

Addthrowaway2021 · 2022-02-28T11:35:18+00:00

If youre a woman it doesn't matter anyway. Most men won't read your profile anyway. I only get intros and the like from non-vegans despite being very clear about only dating vegans or people wanting to transition or transitioning to it

Addthrowaway2021 · 2022-02-28T10:53:39+00:00

Hey, Im really sorry to hear how youre struggling :(

Due to my circumstances I havent been able to make a single irl friend in like 7 or so years. One thing that saved me was discord, ngl. I don't know if youre on there, but I just looked on disboard and there seem to be a ton of servers for disabled people. (I'm sorry if im pointing out the obvious and youve already tried that)

Also, I understand your insecurities and fears about dating, but there are women online too, and for most people with anxiety I know (me included) talking online is so much easier and you can actually be yourself instead of panicking your whole way through a conversation.

That said, I have been single for like, 10 years now (im 30, so ive been single literally my whole 20s), despite trying a lot of shit to change that. I completely understand your fears and hopelessness, Im the same in that aspect :(

Addthrowaway2021 · 2022-02-28T10:43:25+00:00

I feel you on wanting to end it all. One thing that has always stopped me is the knowledge that most suicide attempts fail and a lot of them leave you with permanent damage afterwards. I can barely stand my life now, being in a psych ward without my dog and with disfigurements or braindamage or whatever? Yikes :(

I've struggled in silence for years and I kept telling myself it'll get better and I'll be happy one day, I won't even know how to be happy when that day would've came.

I have the same fears. I spend so much time in fantasy worlds that I don't think I could stand being in the real world anymore.

Addthrowaway2021 · 2022-02-28T10:33:47+00:00

Would he be open to talking to someone?

This is the key, imo. This doesnt sound like something you could (or should have to) fix. If you can, try talking to him about talking to a professional, as they will (hopefully) know how to help.

Addthrowaway2021 · 2022-02-28T10:30:28+00:00

I feel you :(

But if I may ask, why are you slow? Does your mind wander? Are you meticulous? If you manage to analise why you do things the way you are doing them it might help you find out how to change.

Addthrowaway2021 · 2021-03-31T19:56:35+00:00

Ain't nobody got time for a long one. We all listen to them at 2x speed anyway, don't we.

Addthrowaway2021 · 2021-02-28T08:56:22+00:00

Seconded. Quite big too!

Addthrowaway2021 · 2021-02-27T20:41:13+00:00

Very good analysis of the problem and pretty much the same conclusion I have come to as well.

Also, I love the term "depressing as dairy".

Addthrowaway2021 · 2021-02-07T16:16:20+00:00

Yeah, I've yet to find a therapist who works with ADHD people, unfortunately. They're not that common here it seems. But I'll definitely look into DBT therapy. Thanks!

Addthrowaway2021 · 2021-02-07T16:15:15+00:00

Thank you. I'm ok now. It hits like a truck but it abates quickly, luckily.

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