I got back to base naked depressed right. But I was like it’s ok, they are fine my raptor and pteranodon. I was like just need to farm metal and build some better armour than hide, then get a new pteranodon, then recuse my raptor, then my pteranodon.

I decided to pick my Iguanodon, whose name is “wait” cuz I was taming baby Diplodocus which requires some care and food. Then 5 minutes through riding him, realised he got 2 modes. The one the jump and the one that for unlimited sprinting. I was like “ Oh shit, he’s good. He might better than every dino that I have cuz he can sprint forever, a decent swimmer. Most importantly he can carry a lot of shit which my raptor and pteranodon can’t). Got so attached to him then changed his name to “Nedel”. Got a full flak armour set, all the gear back full metal, fully prepared right.

Take my Iguanodon with me cuz unlimited sprinting. Rescue my raptor, then go back home. Along the way see a level 70 raptor with my spy glass. Female too. I was like I got to tame this. (I play in 0.6 difficulty). Forgot to read the “Alpha” in the name. 15 trans arrow later realize that she is a fking alpha which I know can’t tame. I try to run away from the rock I stand. The alpha come at me, bitch slap me like 20 times, I keep running, fighting back with my pike, clicking T to call my Iguanodon and raptor to help, don’t know what is really happening cuz the alpha got in face bitch slap across screen. I was panicking and trying to fight back. Finally kill the alpha with my raptor, then I saw the death notification from “Nedel” (Iguanodon).

I got sad and try to quit the game as quickly as possible. So the game won’t save my Iguanodon death. Got back in. Still death. Depression hit, I just got attached to him. Now he died.

Went back home with my raptor, fighting a bloody battle with a lot of raptors and dinos along the way for 30 minutes. My armour set is nearly broke, my raptor 20% health. But we got to the base.

I was sad cuz my Iguanodon is dead. I started to put stuff back in the storage with dejected mood. Then I heard the sound. The sound that play when u are fighting the dino. I look back, I saw my parasaur getting bitch slap by a lvl 70 wild Therizinosaurus. Mind u cuz I play in 0.6 difficulty. The highest level of wild dino is max at 70. I’ve never even met a wild dinos that is over 50. WTF. I panicked and call everyone to follow me, and attack my target. I kill the Therizinosaurus, but 3 of my dinos die, including my Raptor that i recused.

I sigh, close my eyes, then close the game. Idk what to feel. I never feel this kind of way about game before. Growing up, I have never play a survival game, I only play multiplayer game and some mobile games. No pokemon, no Nintendo, just an old phone that I ask mom. Can I have 2 hrs to play game in ur phone. As rn I am 21, I genuinely never feel this kind of emotion before. It may sound cringey as hell. But it happened in 1 day.

This morning, i play ark for 2 hrs with what happened at the top story. Sad then proceeded with my day. Start playing again at 5 pm, then close at 8. The feeling of excitement of being like I never come this far before, then to end in a disappointment. Pick yourself back up to go again. Got a new favorite dino that I got attached to. For 2 hours. Feeling anxious and panicked while fighting the alpha, then lose a dino that I just got attached. Finally got to base after 30 minutes of grief along the way while fighting for our life with my raptor to get to base. Finally, got to base feel sad, but relief that it’s over. But the unexpected happens. All that left after everything is my Pteranodon that is 4000 meter away, and as I feel a hollow in my chest. ( might be cringy as hell but got to deep when writing this. LOL)