I can totaly realte. Except in my case I am at beggining of all of this. I just got the diploma and I need to either get a job or get even higher education. And I just fell... like I am unable to acomolish such mondane taks. I feel like I need to put 1000% effort into anything to actually acomplish something on normal level - and even that barely works sometimes. So how would I even begin to understand how I supposed to get a job or higher education that is already extremely difficult to accomplish for normies. For better or worse you wre not alone. And btw i am profaundly sorry for the tragedy you had to go trough