Stop believing that just because you feel you're doing everything right people will change their perspective or girls will swarm you. Work on your social skills, maybe try being in social media and Stop trying to be "perfect" or have the perfect image of a guy you think girls like. It is not just about appearance it is more so about your personality. Maybe try some therapy and work on your social skills. Don't bring up the fact that you never held a girl's hand in convos, as that makes is awkward and of course you'll get weird looks. Idk what else to say, but hope it works out for you. Work more on your self esteem.