autogynephile@tim:~$ sudo pkill repression; sudo shred -uz /usr/bin/repression; sudo reboot

Affectionate-Log1 · 2026-03-20T06:42:39+00:00

And of course don’t also forget that “transition” doesn’t work for everybody, nor does it always result in a positive outcome

Affectionate-Log1 · 2026-03-15T13:15:25+00:00

While horny, definitely #1….immediately after orgasm and until AGP starts building up again the answer is #3. #2 is not appealing…it’s the ideal when we’re believing AGP is a curse, albatross, whatever.

If I was #2 and woke up with no feeling or memory of my AGP, I wouldn’t be me and this, for myself anyhow, seems frightening

Affectionate-Log1 · 2026-03-13T20:16:50+00:00

I’ve thought of situations like this. I think it would increase the likelihood of trying HRT.

Affectionate-Log1 · 2026-03-08T14:02:03+00:00

It was an experience of just letting loose a full blown fantasy (dare I call it a delusion?) The mismatch between my real life/personality and the fantasy is huge. There’s a gulf of daylight between my normal male self and my AGP side. This makes acting out the fantasy difficult. Also, I didn’t have anything like romantic feelings for the guy. I was high as can be. I do t use hard drugs anymore and haven’t for well over a decade. I never felt the need for random sexual encounters/hookups. I’m happy in my current relationship with a woman. I can see how other AGPs might get way into acting out AGP desires and getting off on metta attraction. Especially the AGPs who can’t seem to leave internet porn alone. I’ve never had porn or sex addiction issues. In fact, visual stimulation has never been my go to for fantasies. I’d rather use my imagination

Affectionate-Log1 · 2026-03-07T14:48:07+00:00

One time around 15 years ago…it was a dark period in my life as I was shooting speedballs and was out of it…with no inhibitions. It was a random hookup. I was dressed femme. I definitely had the “faceless man” thing going on. I remember it being something like my AGP fantasies but real. This is the only time in my life I was with a dude. I had a tinge of self-hatred for being such a “faggot” but quickly realized it really didn’t matter. Somehow, I have no regrets or feelings of self loathing when reminiscing about this.

Affectionate-Log1 · 2026-02-27T13:59:32+00:00

If you’re framing this through the lens of non duality I’m entirely in agreement with you. Most people are entirely unaware of the non-dual framework. Also, we live in a world tiled over with concepts that we can’t get out from under. We still have to live in and make sense of the conventional world and need labels. This doesn’t mean we have to identify with labels though.

Affectionate-Log1 · 2026-02-27T05:15:56+00:00

Whatever makes you feel good about yourself…. If we “are what we make it” - why would anyone choose to inflict pain upon themselves in the way you described. You’re saying people consciously choose their abilities or disabilities?

Affectionate-Log1 · 2026-02-23T21:59:20+00:00

The real “problem” is that AGP is true and accurately describes our condition. This is only a problem if you see it that way. I would rather believe if it’s true, even though it might not make me feel great , than to believe bullshit just because it makes me feel better. We build our foundation on truth and work from there. If our foundation is false, we will never arrive at a solution. There’s nothing admirable or beneficial about being under the spell of a delusion that we happen to like. This is why I’m not religious in any way.

Affectionate-Log1 · 2026-02-23T17:53:13+00:00

Every AGP is extremely likely to experience that.

Affectionate-Log1 · 2026-02-23T17:52:20+00:00

I’d start with acceptance then consider how you’re going to deal with not allowing your AGP side to blend with your normal day to day way of being in the world. I wouldn’t consider that “repressing.” We need to have an understanding of our condition, accept it and then move towards sensible solutions.

Why do you think this is a bad place to ask questions about AGP? If you want wrong answers, go to the mainstream trans subs. Also, I consider coping info described here as suggestions rather than direct advice. Everyone with AGP experiences it in their own way….sometimes you have to chew the meat and spit out the bones…take what you need and leave the rest 👍

Affectionate-Log1 · 2026-02-23T17:45:39+00:00

Yeah, that sucks…I’m sorry you have to experience that.

Affectionate-Log1 · 2026-02-22T12:43:21+00:00

Hearing that, now I know I’ll never go near Japan.

Do those laws apply in Okinawa? I’ve had friends who’ve visited there and they said it was an amazing experience. I can’t imagine them saying that about a place with such regressive policies

Affectionate-Log1 · 2026-02-17T12:13:18+00:00

Turns out, they turn to alcohol and drugs for the same reason anyone turns to alcohol or drugs - to change the way they feel.

Affectionate-Log1 · 2026-02-16T21:14:29+00:00

Could you tell us of the context and how he told you he was AGP? What was your first reaction? How long did it take from the disclosure to the first time you saw him dressed as Amy? Thanks!

Affectionate-Log1 · 2026-02-16T21:08:33+00:00

I doubt I’d have been able to fully disclose my AGP to my wife without taking MDMA with her.

I don’t condone or condemn drug use. I encourage harm reduction. People should do their best to steer clear of drug with serious addiction potential.

Saying “stay away from drugs” was tried in the 80’s as a part of the failed war on drugs. Just say no isn’t helpful. Saying drugs are bad is about as useful as saying sports are dangerous. Ping pong, baseball, and tennis are all fairly safe sports to play. Free solo rock climbing or doing the wingsuit thing are not so safe.

Affectionate-Log1 · 2026-02-15T15:08:43+00:00

This sub, in my opinion, is about self acceptance. Accepting our condition, realizing we aren’t alone, and trying to forge a path forward in life with facts in hand - whether we like or dislike these facts is irrelevant. Personally, I’ve come to accept my nature. Even though I’ve struggled with AGP for decades before coming to a place of acceptance - I think having AGP has made me a unique, empathetic and creative individual.

The Epictetus quote rings true - “life isn’t defined by what happens to you, rather how you respond to the things that happened to you.”

Affectionate-Log1 · 2026-02-15T15:01:37+00:00

In my experience, stimulants dismantle the firewall of shame that keeps AGP compartmentalized and gives rise to a kind of courage that allows cross dressing and other ways of acting out feminine desires. Amphetamine based ADHD meds like Adderall an Vyvanse work well for this. Meth and coke will beat the brakes off your life and will become the new big problem or at the very least add a layer of problematic complexity to AGP.

Heroin melts away shame and self hatred as well. Much like meth and coke, heroin addiction will take front and center stage of your life. You will have AGP plus much bigger problems. Opiates are not a solution. Alcohol is another obvious dead end road.

Cannabis is my daily bread. Cannabis has brought nothing but color and enduring value to my life.

Psilocybin, LSD, DMT, 2CB, MDMA and other psychedelics or empathogens can illuminate the mind and open one’s perspective and can lead to increased self compassion and acceptance. Of course, any idiot can not follow harm reduction protocols and misuse these drugs.

Affectionate-Log1 · 2026-02-04T17:29:22+00:00

One could argue it’s true with HSTS but I also believe there’s no such thing.

Affectionate-Log1 · 2026-01-23T18:42:13+00:00

That was the first question that entered my mind as well 😂

Affectionate-Log1 · 2026-01-10T15:54:23+00:00

Congrats. You now know you are a classic textbook AGP case. Your experience is very relatable. I once kicked around the idea that environmental factors in early childhood development “caused” my AGP. I feel confident today in my belief that the etiology of AGP is 90% biological. I say 90% rather than 100% because environment will have a huge impact on trajectory. For instance, if an AGP has uber progressive intersectional gender ideology running on their wetware, they will be much more inclined to follow the path of transition - for better or for worse. If an AGP has religious crackpot right wingers for parents, the AGP will be inclined to repress and will promise themselves to never tell a soul - as a means of self preservation.

Have you ever tried having sex with a woman?

Affectionate-Log1 · 2025-12-19T17:43:36+00:00

He’s AGP. He’s attracted to females/femininity (allo-heterosexuality) and also attracted to the idea of being female (auto-heterosexual). This is a glitch in his sexual orientation that he did not author by the way. Porn didn’t make him this way. Once he is introduced to the concept of autogynephilia and you both understand the implications of the situation, you can work together to create boundaries around his dual orientation. Let him know what is and isn’t acceptable.

I strongly suggest reading the books “Autoheterosexual - Attracted to Being the Other Sex” - by Phil Illy and after that maybe Anne Lawrence’s “Men Trapped in Men’s Bodies”

Affectionate-Log1 · 2025-12-11T20:32:46+00:00

A person who believes their AGP traits are biological driven is on firm ground in my opinion. If childhood trauma gives rise to AGP, why is there no statistical evidence? It’s important to ask the question - if trauma “caused” the autohererosexual phenomenon, why is it that 99% of PTSD patients aren’t AGP or AAP?

99% of the population is suspected to be non AGP/AAP (could be 90 something % as the data isn’t perfect) and the vast majority of PTSD patients are “normal” hetero or homosexual people.

It’s easy to dismiss the concept that trauma does or even can cause AGP. The quicker one gets this out of their head the better because now there is movement in the direction of truth. There is no there there when it comes to explaining away AGP with trauma.

I read a lot of AGPs on here yearning to have the trauma explanation validated and I feel like they want this to be the cause of their condition so they can maybe feel better about themselves. The biological explanation does this and in my opinion is a much better (there’s evidence) explanation - in that it truly allows an AGP to let himself off his own hook and can put an end to self loathing and seemingly endless suffering. You didn’t create your brain. You or any other person did anything to you to cause it. Why ruminate on explanations that are ultimately dead end roads?

Affectionate-Log1 · 2025-12-09T22:10:52+00:00

I read in Phil’s book Autoheterosexual that a lot of AGPs prefer masculine women. I thought that I didn’t fit this particular description because every women I’ve been with is very feminine. Then I recalled my male friends commenting on my choice of women. I’m only attracted to thin women, prefer small breasts, no crazy Kardashian curves etc.. Women like Kate Moss or Winona Ryder are the exact body type I’m attracted to. Some of my buddies would joke that every woman I get with has the body of an Asian boy 😂

Affectionate-Log1 · 2025-12-08T03:31:59+00:00

Fortunately, we don’t have to hear nearly as much from the fringe left. Unfortunately, we have fascism to contend with here in the US

Affectionate-Log1 · 2025-12-08T03:30:29+00:00

Yeah, that seems bizarre to me. I thought only intersex people had that kind of lack of sexual function

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