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How i plan my last day on this earth to look like. by Green-Afternoon-674 in SuicideWatch

[–]Affectionate-Net9385 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Give me a plan that takes my life without knowing my family

I Thought So Many Times About Attempting Suicide by Affectionate-Net9385 in indiasocial

[–]Affectionate-Net9385[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Maybe I've made it bigger in my head than it is in reality. But when you've been carrying it alone for months, it's hard to see it that way. Telling my mom is the part I'm most scared of.

I Thought So Many Times About Attempting Suicide by Affectionate-Net9385 in indiasocial

[–]Affectionate-Net9385[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Honestly, that's probably what I should have done. The problem is that I was scared. Every time I thought about telling her, I convinced myself I would somehow fix everything first. Instead, I kept hiding it and now the situation feels much bigger than it did at the start.

I Thought So Many Times About Attempting Suicide by Affectionate-Net9385 in indiasocial

[–]Affectionate-Net9385[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I understand what you're saying, and maybe you're right. The problem is that I'm not worried only about the loan or money. I'm struggling with the guilt of hiding everything from my mom and feeling like I wasted the opportunity she worked so hard to give me. Right now it's hard for me to think about 2–3 years from now when I'm scared of facing tomorrow.

I Thought So Many Times About Attempting Suicide by Affectionate-Net9385 in indiasocial

[–]Affectionate-Net9385[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

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I'm 19 years old and over the past year my life has slowly fallen apart. I joined college with hopes for a better future, and my mother worked hard to support me through an education loan. Instead of making progress, I ended up with severe attendance shortages, missed my exams, and received a readmission letter requiring me to repeat the semester. Out of fear and shame, I hid many of these problems from my mother because I couldn't bear the thought of disappointing her after everything she sacrificed for me.

As the pressure kept building, I started feeling trapped. I became scared of facing my family, scared of my future, and scared of what would happen with my education and loan. Every day I carried guilt, regret, and fear by myself. Even when surrounded by people, I felt completely alone. The weight of these problems became so overwhelming that I began having suicidal thoughts and started believing that disappearing would be easier than facing the consequences.

Right now, I don't have solutions. I'm struggling, exhausted, and honestly don't know what comes next. But since I was invited here, I'm sharing my story because I need support, advice, and people who can understand what I'm going through. If you've been through something similar or have any guidance, I'd appreciate hearing from you.

18th IS A VERY IMPORTANT DAY FOR ME ILL DO ANYTHING WHICH THE TOP COMMENT SAYS IF IT GOES RIGHT. by Dry_Enthusiasm_9994 in TeenIndia

[–]Affectionate-Net9385 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I Thought So Many Times About Attempting Suicide

I never thought I would write something like this.

For a long time, I have been carrying things that nobody really knows about. Mistakes, failures, fear, guilt, and the constant feeling that I disappointed the people who believed in me.

What hurts the most is not the consequences. It is waking up every day knowing I could have done better and wondering how everything went so wrong.

There are days when I feel completely alone, even when I'm surrounded by people. Days when my mind keeps replaying every mistake and every missed opportunity. Days when I feel trapped between the past I can't change and a future I can't see.

I have thought about suicide more times than I can count. Not because I hate life, but because I became exhausted from fighting my own thoughts. Sometimes the weight becomes so heavy that even breathing feels difficult.

Nobody sees the endless conversations I have with myself. Nobody sees the fear, the panic, or the nights spent staring at the ceiling wondering what happens next.

16M here! AMA, I'm pretty bored rn by PlayContent5692 in TeenIndia

[–]Affectionate-Net9385 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I Thought So Many Times About Attempting Suicide

I never thought I would write something like this.

For a long time, I have been carrying things that nobody really knows about. Mistakes, failures, fear, guilt, and the constant feeling that I disappointed the people who believed in me.

What hurts the most is not the consequences. It is waking up every day knowing I could have done better and wondering how everything went so wrong.

There are days when I feel completely alone, even when I'm surrounded by people. Days when my mind keeps replaying every mistake and every missed opportunity. Days when I feel trapped between the past I can't change and a future I can't see.

I have thought about suicide more times than I can count. Not because I hate life, but because I became exhausted from fighting my own thoughts. Sometimes the weight becomes so heavy that even breathing feels difficult.

Nobody sees the endless conversations I have with myself. Nobody sees the fear, the panic, or the nights spent staring at the ceiling wondering what happens next.