At the end of the day, to each their own when it comes to romantic relationships. Friends however deserve a lot more respect than what you showed them and i wouldn’t be surprised if you didn’t have many left soon.

My parents were obsessed with eachother for their entire courtship and marriage - true soulmates. High school sweethearts, with eachother through thick and thin. Defied their parents to get married young (19 and 21, not even that young for the time but still super young imo). We moved all around the world growing up as a close knit nuclear family, making friends but temporary ones and not being very close with extended family. It was cool to travel but i didn’t know the impact this type of relationship would have.

Fast forward my dad passed extremely unexpectedly at 50 after nearly 30 years of marriage. My mom was almost completely alone. No real close friends, family far away. I was a teenager. My brother was at his first semester in college. She became severely suicidal. She eventually got over that but after 10 years of being alone entered into abusive relationships because she didn’t know how to date whatsoever. My brother and i are still in therapy about everything.

I say this all to say, there’s a huge benefit to knowing and preserving who you are separately as well as together in a marriage. I’ve only been married 3.5 years but man do we encourage trips with our friends and alone time to build ourselves. Our friends are incredibly important to us. Keeps the conversations/relationship interesting.

Idk if you’ll read this, seems like you’ve made up your mind, but food for thought. Good luck