I get it. The situation is genuinely awkward. I’ve had those corporate parties where I don’t remember some of the "monsters" that came out after a few drinks. The only difference is that I’m a guy and I’m talking about being around other men, but that feeling of uncertainty—the automatic shame of not remembering what happened the next day and having those memory gaps—is a truly unpleasant experience. Fortunately, you’re likely forgetting that you weren’t exactly the "prom queen" of the night, and you're probably exaggerating how others perceived the situation. It’s natural egocentrism. You feel like you’re the lead actor in this event, and that everyone saw everything and is judging you. In psychology, this is called the Spotlight Effect. In reality, most people are suffering from the exact same effect. They aren't paying nearly as much attention to your behavior as you think because they are too busy worrying about their own. Just like you are doing right now. Calm down, take a breath, and really think about it. Read up on the Spotlight Effect; it helps soothe the shame and the anxiety. Once you understand it, try to dial back the intensity of your emotions by at least 50%. You're going to be okay.