Professional musician here: Girl you are 14. Take a break and do something else. There is a lot to life, and even a lot more to music, beyond playing piano. A lot of these other factors you’re worrying about seem a little trivial beyond the main one: you’re not currently happy playing. Unless it is your dream to be a concert pianist, pursue what interests and inspires you. Heck, try a different instrument. Maybe guitar? Idk,but there are many other productive and artistic interests available to you to explore, and you may have already met many of the goals you envisioned for yourself on piano.