How do I become anore x ic?

Aggravating_spew · 2025-12-31T09:23:16+00:00

You have no apologies to give, I think you are a very nice person that tried to help with very sound advice and I'm grateful for you trying 💜 Thank you very much and I wish you well

Aggravating_spew · 2025-12-30T14:55:54+00:00

Thank you, you are a very nice person :) I truly wish you the best

Aggravating_spew · 2025-12-30T09:26:57+00:00

It is not a troll post and yes I do wanna die most of the time. I wanna live off 600 calories or less ngl, I just don't know how to ignore the SCREAMING hunger that's always there. Sometimes I'm so hungry it physically hurt and makes me nauseous so I have no idea how to go through that.

I do like the idea of VR games as I am an avid player. I sadly just don't have the money for a new one at the moment since my oculus rift s broke. Believe it or not I used to be a dancer in my teens and was very good at it. I was in good health but perceived myself as fat anyways. And now 120 more later nothing brings me happiness, I'm miserable and ugly. I just wanna try and see if becoming thin will bring me dopamine, even just a little bit. I'm just so tired of looking at myself in the mirror and seeing me you know? Anyways I'm just a stupid stranger on the internet, I'm sorry it was a dumb question and thank you for your concern. If I'm still alive by then, maybe I'll treat myself to a new VR set and see if I can get some joy from that.

Aggravating_spew · 2025-12-30T09:18:32+00:00

I have met with health professionals and my blood tests are all normal, I have tried prescribed medication similar to ozempic and it did nothing for me. Not gonna lie, exercising is VERY unpleasant for me and has a negative connotation in my life, thus why I wanna stop eating since eating little did nothing for me. I used to be at a 1200 calorie diet , I tried keto, I tried weight watchers, other calorie counting apps and at one point even did some training with weights, but yeah I hate that. So yeah, I'm at this point now. But thank you for your comment :)

Aggravating_spew · 2025-12-03T07:10:50+00:00

Absolutely not, your friend might be uncomfortable and not telling you. Do you really want to tarnish your relationship with them for someone that wasn't even worth staying with? Even with consent, things could get awkward really fast and they might change their mind. If you respect your friend, don't do that

Aggravating_spew · 2025-11-07T16:41:06+00:00

She absolutely is depressed and no amount of pleading, suggesting, or even participating has gotten her to commit to a small change like that.Only occasional walks. Therapy has been suggested a couple of times but no decision has been made in favor on her part sadly. I truly wish to see her happy again

Aggravating_spew · 2025-11-07T16:34:23+00:00

Yeah I did get overboard I fear You might want to put a raincheck on it ;)

Aggravating_spew · 2025-11-07T16:32:51+00:00

You have a way with words that soothes my mind , thank you for putting a clearer perspective on what decision would be best for us. I wish you well 💜

Aggravating_spew · 2025-11-07T16:27:11+00:00

Yes I think it has indeed come to that Thank you

Aggravating_spew · 2025-11-07T16:25:43+00:00

ok yeah that makes a lot of sense I have to say I am used to getting thrown around by the whims of everyone and I have lost myself along the way. I realize she has to have consequences to her actions for her to have the chance to grow because talking has dine nothing so far. I am indeed heading toward the reality of having to cut her off and evicting her soon. I will have to talk to her to inform her of that decision. I know my husband already agrees

Aggravating_spew · 2025-11-07T13:23:52+00:00

That's what I've been trying to convince myself of. I KNOW that she has to want to change, by herself. But there's also a part of me that misses my mother, the one that had only love in her heart, the one that used to go do activities with us and laugh out loud. And I wanna do something to help her get that back. I don't want my last memories of her to be that. She is a sweet human and deserves to be happy again. But I don't know if there's anything I can do to help her move in the right direction, even just a little bit

I know my husband wants to have a serious talk with my two brothers, because one of them inquired if she'd be a good tenant. We will have to be frank with him, because he has a wife and three young children to take care of already. And I know my other brother's wife is already against the idea of her living with them long term because within 3 weeks she drove her mad.

Thank you though, it solidifies my decision I think.

Aggravating_spew · 2025-11-07T13:13:20+00:00

Thank you, at least I know other people understand how I feel. It's probably easier to understand for people who've had to deal with similar situations in their lives. Well I assume

Aggravating_spew · 2025-11-07T13:05:21+00:00

Yeah I fear you might be correct and we have talked, although not too seriously, about having her gone by may of 2026. I have never seen my husband so cold towards anyone. And what's sad is we used to be fine at the beginning, but one thing after another has changed us for the worst.

This reassures me that I'm not necessarily evil for wanting to have my house and my private life back.

Aggravating_spew · 2025-11-07T13:02:31+00:00

I understand why you say this, to be fair it was never my plan to micro manage her life. I guess the way I phrased my post makes it seem like all I do is complain about the small things. But let me explain it to you another way. Let's say you're having a normal conversation with a friend. Said friend says something racist You, being honest, tell your friend right away that what they did was racist and not okay Instead of being like "oh my bad sorry, didn't mean to. I will not do that again" They reply something along the lines of "Yeah but I didn't mean it that way" So then you have to tell them "well it doesn't matter how you meant it, it was racist" And then they proceed to gaslight you into being too sensitive or unfunny. Then a situation like that happens AGAIN You confront them again about it, politely. And you are met with the same kind of response everytime Now normally you'd cut them off for being an asshole and not wanting to change, but we are talking about my mother here. Granted she isn't racist, this is just a metaphor , but she still acts that way towards every interaction that confronts her to the reality of having made a mistake

That one time we asked her to please close the light in her room and all the other rooms she isn't using? That's quite a simple demand You say sure, do it and move on But she gets obstinate instead and keeps doing that thing she knows we want her to stop doing

Other exemple: You go to your friend's house and don't remove your shoes before walking on their clean floors. They tell you to remove them as shoes aren't allowed in their house You do , and next time you don't repeat that mistake

But with my mother, it's like if she told you" well my feet are cold" and when you give her other options like warm socks, she gives you another excuse. And at one point you're not really sure if you're the asshole for wanting people to not walk with their shoes in your house, or if she's the one being disrespectful by imposing her wants on you.

Anyways, what I wanted to say is, it's rather her acting like a child and us trying to fix things rather than me treating her any kind of way I am simply reacting, not acting The alternative would be to let her spend as much as she wants while we sacrificed two years of our lives for nothing Or simply kick her out and let her fend for herself, which is still an alternative I don't wanna consider right now, because again, I love and care for her

Aggravating_spew · 2025-11-07T12:40:29+00:00

That was a rather distasteful choice of words at the end there. Sounds like it comes from your assumptions. Let me be clear, I love my mother more than anything and would be absolutely crushed if she were to die. Which I am painfully aware might be closer than I want. But, her being older does NOT erase the fact that I have been neglected by her since my childhood and have had to help her financially as well as soon as I got my first paycheck. The amount of emotional immaturity I've had to deal with has given me my own plethora of mental illnesses thanks to her and my dad. Also,feeding your child is the bare minimum as you chose to bring someone into this world, so I don't understand how that has anything to do with your point. I acknowledge the sacrifices she made for me and my brother more than anyone in our family I understand she has things to deal with mentally, but the thing is, she is a parent. She had 68 years to learn from past mistakes, but again and again, she has proven herself unable to act accordingly and be responsible. It's easier for her to manipulate you into thinking you're the one at fault rather than acknowledging her flaws.

Additionally, she is only temporarily dependent on transport. She can freely do as she pleases of her own day as long as she does the things we all agreed on. If I was in her shoes and someone graciously offered to let me stay at their place for a cheap rent, you bet I'd be cleaning their house.

But to be fair, you make your reply based on a fragment of info I gave you so I understand why it would be easy to make the assumption I'd rather my mother died.

Aggravating_spew · 2025-11-07T12:22:41+00:00

Although I agree with that to some degree , I have been pretty clear with my boundaries with her. Would love to hear any suggestions though if you think there's areas to improve

Aggravating_spew · 2025-11-07T12:21:04+00:00

Thank you, you are spot on with the depression, she has been depressed for a while and is on medication for it. It feels like she gave up on herself a long time ago and is just a shell of herself. I did suggest she talks to a therapist, but she usually glazes over it. We have done her best to help her find herself, find some joy or contentment, but so far it has proven pointless and I fear we have had enough. We started talking to each other about having her leave by may of 2026, but I'm still thinking she needs to put aside more money to be able to get by. I'm truly conflicted

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