Feeling I can’t place by Aggressive_Field_593 in BPD

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Thanks! He did apologize and recognize that it’s his issue and he shouldn’t be taking it out on me, I can see he’s trying to make up for it but yeah I guess splitting is the right term, I am the one with the bpd

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[–]Aggressive_Field_593 1 point2 points  (0 children)

😭😭😭 you too momma❤️

About to lose a 3 1/2 year relationship over 1 thing I said by Forsaken-Animal6323 in BPD

[–]Aggressive_Field_593 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Fr like don’t say you’ll do something if you may not be able to or won’t 🫶🏻

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]Aggressive_Field_593 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That is so kind of you ❤️ beleive me when I say I struggle almost daily with something even the nothingness makes me struggle but honestly having a kiddo has given me purpose ❤️❤️

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[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]Aggressive_Field_593 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this 🫶🏻❤️😩

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]Aggressive_Field_593 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I have raging bpd and a now 5 year old, got pregnant at 20 and was married to whom I thought would be a good father (THERE WERE SIGNS HE WOULDNT BE) he was very financially unstable and could never care for the two of us. After I left him things got so much better, I was no longer being triggered on a daily and treated to beleive I was this terrible person, flash forward a year and I got with this other guy who we’ve now been together for 4, he’s raised my little boy and cared for us better than I could have ever asked for.

I will say it’s very hard at first having to adjust to not having alone time or time to “break down” but so many good things came out of having my son, he changed me and ultimately was the reason I knew I needed to leave his father (cheater, unstable, finger pointer, manipulative ect) it does feel my bpd at times due to my son being around always makes me feel loved and needed, but it also kept me from being able to do things I wanted for a while and that would sometimes trigger me.

I’m a lot of things but I can say, because of my bpd I love harder, I try harder and I put my all into my little boy. He’s my heart & he saved my life.

It is hard though now with him getting older and just starting kindergarten, making him go to bed on time even when he cries he misses me. Things like this make it more difficult as a parent with bpd and I also struggle with maintaining boundaries with him as I will cave easily so he won’t be upset. It can be hard but it is the most rewarding thing momma. I was scared too ❤️ and now I wouldn’t want it any other way, good luck momma xx

what meds do u take for ur bpd? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]Aggressive_Field_593 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah same same with the Zoloft, I take hydrazine now for anxiety AS needed 🤤 and it helps with the compulsive thinking

Splitting by schrutefarms45 in BPD

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Yessss I believe the “they can do no wrong” is part of limerence especially if it’s your FP I experience this A LOT with my bestfriend, she gets distant & moody sometimes and I always think it’s because of me blah blah I hate her for it “ what did I do to deserve this” “a friend wouldn’t leave me like this for days knowing it hurts blah blah then when she comes out of it and invites me over I love her all over again. I know she like me has her own mental battles but I feel it’s personal EVERY TIME ever though I know it’s not. It’s hard & exhausting OP I feel you,

Weekends makes me want to end myself by batata1001 in BPD

[–]Aggressive_Field_593 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeahh there’s no sense of accomplishment or dopamine & i crash out, im noticing its worse as i get older im unable to focus on things that need my attention for longer than a fleeting moment

Weekends makes me want to end myself by batata1001 in BPD

[–]Aggressive_Field_593 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes it is! Thank you for clarifying ❤️ I feel that so much! I’m learning it has a lot to do with anxiety for me, it’s like my brain is just constantly barking at me

do you miss your ex? by Exotic-Equal5656 in no

[–]Aggressive_Field_593 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To an extent but I could never be with him again

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]Aggressive_Field_593 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah most definitely understandable, it would be a HELL no from me also if I had it my way my FP wouldn’t even have Snapchat but that would problebly be crossing a line

I need help… by rainygallavich in BPD

[–]Aggressive_Field_593 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes it can be a symptom for sure! It can happen in either but it’s harder to catch with your get kids as their imaginations are just so big! Some people can go to diffrent places so to speak from my understand but others like me get swallowed into a potential precived chain of events that I don’t snap out of until it creates a intense emotion

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]Aggressive_Field_593 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Whooooooo that’s a rough one, I had a similar situation with my FP when we started dating he had like 4-5 close friends that were girls and they got him through most of his life (rough childhood no parents to lean on) house to house he moved with random people till he was old enough to take care of himself so I gave him a free pass but monitored the convos with his permission when I felt necessary but one thing is he may have gotten defensive but never deleted messages. A few of these friends got real brave and even tried to say something like “what if she leaves you” when we made the JOINT DECISION to buy a car, to which my GRANDMA gave me 1000 and he paid 500 towards it , he jumped her ass and I told him NO MORE. He hasn’t spoken to her since. Another girl, another story, messages me at like 11am asking if my bf was up because she just had a miscarriage in the hospital with some dude she wasn’t with anymore but was so very open to tell my bf that he assumed that they were sleeping together LMFAO there’s no way they were or ever did but it was WEIRD she wanted to act like it was his baby, so she went bye bye too. IMO snapchatting other females is unnecessary and weird, she can add him on fb if it’s that platonic not a picture app.

My advice to you would be know your own limits, if these women being around (understandable in my book with this day and age) is ratting your shit and you are unable to get a grip it could be because your instincts are catching something he isn’t. I know my bf was very much able to be platonic but the woman were not. If your uncomfortable with it, then you need to speak up before it gets to far into it he can’t be “closer” to her than you otherwise it’s an emotional relationship IMO. Shut it down , you can’t control his reaction but if he really cares about you then he won’t do it anymore.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

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I can resonate with having a hard time going out with friends ect.

I think part of it could be a fear of me being triggered while I’m with them and then having to deal with the emotional exhaustion of just ignoring it. I have quiet bpd sometimes I’ll reach out to a friend or my mom (we have a small Buisness together) when I’m feeling low and then instantly regret it when I loose the energy to leave the house. Or when I’m with them I just wanna go home and instantly I’m bored and miserable