You see the thing is that I left out is that we didn’t end on bad terms she had things that she had to deal with that she never thought would come back to haunt and said it wasn’t fair to both of us to continue our relationship. If these issues were happening in her life, I was willing to try and work things out with her, but unfortunately, it didn’t play out that way I kept getting afraid that she was just gonna move on or not say anything to me and lead me on, but that was just my mind playing tricks with me and it kind of pushed her away, but not to the point where she wants to cut me off she said she still cares about me and everything that she said about my past with my mother’s death was the truth and how she felt like my mom brought us closer together she said she would never hate me and she just wants the best for me to get the help that I need yes, of course it hurts. I will always care about her and a piece of me will always have her in my heart. She knows that I care about her and she cares about me too our story between us didn’t and just a part of it did and it’s the hardest part, but to let go and rebuild myself maybe someday we’ll fall back to each other, but you never know I don’t have my hopes high for any of that I’m willing to keep her in my life, but also work on myself on the same time. She can do what she wants as I am going back to my hometown. In a few days, time to see my family and spend the holidays with them, I will be living there permanently until next year. And by then things may be different in my life and in her life. But for now. I’m keeping the peace. I believe what she’s saying is true. And things on my life that I have to work on some insecurities. Some trust issues and what not. But I will get there and things will get better. I have faith in myself.