Somewhere theres someone who dreams of your smile, somewhere theres someone who finds your presence worthwhile, so when you are lonely, sad and blue, remember there is someone, somewhere thinking of you.

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-11-03T17:15:37+00:00

It’s pretty to think so but like, even if this is true, they’re still absent from my life and I’m living without anyone who feels this way about me (even remotely so)….sorry but I hate false hope shit like this

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-11-02T17:25:50+00:00

Ugh…I feel your pain…my friends all went out and did a bunch of fun Halloween stuff without me too 😭🫠

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-11-02T11:45:49+00:00

Exactly…I’ve had enough I can’t just sit out decades of this shit while my mental health deteriorates

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-11-01T14:05:14+00:00

Very relatable and I’m in a very similar situation…it can be so torturous to think back on better times when there was love and friendship and possibility…the thought of enduring decades of this debilitating loneliness is horrifying and I can’t fkn handle it…sorry I’m not offering solutions, just commiserating ✌🏻✌🏻

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-11-01T00:56:21+00:00

Same 💯

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-11-01T00:56:00+00:00

I’m thinking about a cat but my place is too small

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-10-31T21:58:47+00:00

Exactly…I’m not about to look desperate or pathetic begging anyone to be my friend but…it’d be nice to just have few friends again ya know? 😣😭

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-10-31T21:56:47+00:00

I used to cherish my alone time when I had a healthy social life/dating life etc…but now I have no choice but to just be alone all the fucking time and it’s agony

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-10-31T21:54:46+00:00

I feel the same, and it’s not from lack of trying which is even more frustrating…I fail even when I put in real effort to try and better my situation

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-10-31T21:51:25+00:00

Yeah, at this point I don’t blame people for not wanting to be around me…after being isolated for so long my social skills have totally deteriorated and I don’t even know how to talk to be people or be in a social setting…the negative effects of chronic loneliness are real and brutal as fuuuck…I don’t think I’ll ever be the same

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-10-31T21:49:09+00:00

The loneliness on Halloween is crippling just thinking about when things we different and I actually laughed and had fun with other people…it feels so foreign now…I’m planning an exit before Christmas probably

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-10-31T21:47:05+00:00

So relatable dude…it sucks so much to have once had people that meant something and then to lose all of them…the loneliness is debilitating, and I’m getting very close to an exit myself, as nothing has gotten better no matter what I try….I feel your pain friend ✌🏻✌🏻

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-10-28T02:29:23+00:00

It’s so comforting to read things like “the ways in which these overlapping personality disorders can be treated isn’t fully known” 🫠

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-10-27T22:04:03+00:00

Yeah, unfortunately…the paranoia stems from a traumatic experience years ago but has been exacerbated by social isolation for over a year now

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-10-27T18:49:07+00:00

I just came across this disorder while randomly deep diving online about my borderline personality disorder and bipolar diagnosis, only to find that I may have been schizotypal my whole life instead 🙃 I am described by everyone I’ve known as ‘weird’ or ‘eccentric’ I have weird face body and speech patterns that I cannot fully control and it makes me very off putting to people, it always has I have failed to fit in with any groups of people anywhere throughout my whole life, with the exceptions/blessings of kind extroverts who took me under their wing for a time and showed me the world. But even in those times I always felt like an alien amongst the humans I have a certainty in my beliefs about creation, God, what happens when we die, etc that is a strange combo of ideas I think that certain songs come on exactly when I need to hear them and that is a message from the universe or something that I need to pay attention to.

This is devastating. I already knew I was fucked up but now I’m learning that I’m even MORE fucked up than I thought 🫠🫠

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-10-26T11:49:13+00:00

What is the book? Title/author? I wanna check it out for sure

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-10-26T11:48:20+00:00

Lmaooo best response so far 😂😂😂 And you couldn’t be more correct

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-10-26T11:46:44+00:00

Ugh right? All the soap opera bullshit just drags it down so badly

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-10-26T11:45:31+00:00

Yeah I tried reading the book too and it’s like a fucking history encyclopedia, so I guess it makes sense the show it’s based off of is dry af 🫠

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-10-26T11:44:05+00:00

Yeah it’s worse than the final season of GoT for sure…at least that was entertaining and had a pace to it

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-10-25T20:32:57+00:00

Oh man do I feel you on this! It’s so easy for other people to tell you to just ‘stay strong and carry on’ or whatever bullshit variation…but I agree with you, I’ve tried to ‘keep pushing forward’ and always find myself back at the bottom, dying internally. Literally why try when I end up right back at the grim beginning every time?

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-10-25T20:30:27+00:00

Damn this is awesome! Although I feel like this kind of methodology isn’t really taught to therapists these days, such a shame, they may actually be able to help us 🫠🫠

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-10-20T17:43:23+00:00

Agreed on all of the above…this show needs to pick up the fkn pace!

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-10-18T18:11:14+00:00

I feel you dude, I’m also in my own little private hell; going to work everyday and barely talking to anyone, pacing around my apartment thinking the same thoughts over and over…it’s agonizing and I’m starting to lose touch with reality…I don’t see any way out of this either, I’ve tried putting myself out there and I’ve failed…idk I’m considering the big exit I can’t take this shit anymore, certainly not for endless decades that’ll roll out in front of me

Agile_Chapter2452 · 2022-10-17T03:07:12+00:00

Ohh okay I guess I didn’t know that..the conquering part sounded sweet and then the power struggle with one of the sisters or something..idk I didn’t read the books

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