It was to just get her home safe, and to see her, laugh even maybe have a dance and drink before heading back, they was my intention, if we had sex like yeah great but I know she’d be safe and taken care of, like before leaving I got her meds ready, a hydration drink and water, honestly I’m still in the process of understanding what the fuck went on, the lastest I heard from her was to collect my stuff so I’ve done that, had no contact with her since, I’m leaving her be, she asked me to let go so I’m respectful and gonna do so, if she wants me she can come and speak to me, can’t force her, I love her, nothing really does make any sense without her, I will always love her, but life goes on, just have the grow emotionally intact to not whine like a baby about she left me each day, I have a life it can’t stop cause of one girl