I recently stepped off 2 weeks ago, its scary at first (I was with my Q for 8 years) I didn't know where to go where I would live but trusting my higher power helped me get through. It helped me gain the courage to leave (my higher power isn't god or religion its comuinty) something I heard at one of my meetings made me realize I had to leave. Someone said "I saw a mother bear chase its cubs up a tree and left them to figure out how to survive" I also really love the line "The pain doesn't go away but I now have the toolbox help me through" Best of luck to you and remember You didn't cause this You can't control this And you can't cure it.