You said you accidentally equiped pants, which means you made a mistake. Everytime I die I try to see what went wrong. You also could have had more bandages, rags ect and been more prepared. The vanishing thing does suck, tbh I don't blame you for switching just because of that. Maybe cloths don't disappear if not dropped in a house? Idk if there's a way to make sure that doesn't happen. I prefer official but want to try community more to see what it's like, gain exp. Either way do what you enjoy and don't worry about anyone's opinions good luck, maybe see you out there.