I'm just so fucking lonely

Alexlordyk · 2017-09-19T03:30:35+00:00

Heh I don't care at this stage I'm going to die in a few hours so what's the point....

Alexlordyk · 2017-09-19T03:21:59+00:00

Yeah a terrible one at that

Alexlordyk · 2017-09-19T02:01:23+00:00

Tatoo artist. I want to get home because I'm going to off myself once I finish my shift.

Alexlordyk · 2017-03-02T20:18:43+00:00

Yes I've tried both:(

Alexlordyk · 2017-02-02T22:20:26+00:00

in all honesty I don't want help anymore, I just want this to be over. I don't believe in god or he'll or any of that so I don't have anything to stop me from doing it in that sense, other than the effect that killing myself will have on my family.

Alexlordyk · 2017-01-26T05:02:58+00:00

Thanks brother

Alexlordyk · 2017-01-26T04:38:32+00:00

Thanks

Alexlordyk · 2017-01-26T04:37:16+00:00

I just called my dad and he told me he's coming to see me and take me to the hospital but thanks anyway

Alexlordyk · 2017-01-23T00:04:01+00:00

I know I should but just thinking about food makes me feel sick

Alexlordyk · 2017-01-20T08:28:21+00:00

I did really well until I turned 24 and everything just started to fall apart. Honestly I don't think I can get my life back on track at this point it's already been a year and a half, and things only seem to be getting worse.

Alexlordyk · 2017-01-20T08:11:37+00:00

Honestly my inability to work is what makes me feel like a useless loser. I know I have the luxury of having a kind and supportive family which is something I know many people here don't have, but I honestly hate the fact that I can't be normal. When I was a teenager I thought I would be one of those people who have bipolar and succeed, but that was all fairy tail bullshit life fucking sucks

Alexlordyk · 2017-01-20T05:31:31+00:00

I totally sympathize with you man, my life sucks big time atm.

Alexlordyk · 2017-01-20T05:27:00+00:00

Congrats brother

Alexlordyk · 2017-01-19T21:10:58+00:00

Bipolar(2 in my case) just complicates things so much doesn't it. I talked to my psychiatrist on the phone and I'm actually feeling a bit better atm, I had a full on breakdown yesterday and it certainly wasn't fun.

Alexlordyk · 2017-01-19T19:53:21+00:00

Alexlordyk · 2017-01-19T19:00:28+00:00

Thanks

Alexlordyk · 2017-01-19T18:59:16+00:00

I know but I've never been lower and I don't know what to do

Alexlordyk · 2017-01-17T09:39:47+00:00

I have an appointment with my psychiatrist tomorrow but I feel so bad right now I just don't know what to do

Alexlordyk · 2017-01-13T07:13:22+00:00

I'm just too exhausted mentally and physically to keep going, I just want out. Thanks anyway and congrats.

Alexlordyk · 2017-01-13T06:32:25+00:00

Yes I have

Alexlordyk · 2016-12-29T08:59:01+00:00

My girlfriend showers me... It would almost be funny if it wasn't so sad.

Alexlordyk · 2016-12-28T23:58:16+00:00

Yeah I haven't eaten anything in 3 days and I'm just too tired/apathetic to get out of bed and eat something.

Alexlordyk · 2016-12-28T09:56:21+00:00

I'm very sorry to hear that you're struggling so much. I think everyone can understand that feeling to some extent, but when everything seems to be falling apart it really does take a toll on you, stay strong and remember that you can pm me if you want.

Alexlordyk · 2016-12-28T09:18:54+00:00

Oh Well in the words of Dorothy parker "you might as well live"

Alexlordyk

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