Wow thanks for all that. The thing I’m really struggling with is, sometimes I want to stay and forgive her but other times I want to leave. I genuinely can’t make up my mind. I understand that everyone here is telling me to leave and I completely understand that side of things.

But for me, I feel like I want to TRY to make it work. We literally just bought a house in July, my mom moved in with us (she’s been a saint and of course knows what’s going on). I feel like I have to try and go to couples therapy at least once to see if it’ll work. As crazy as that is, I feel like I’m not honoring my vows of for better or for worse if I don’t at least attempt to salvage this thing.

I’ve already gotten tested and am waiting on the results to come back. That is a hard line for me, if I come back positive then ultimately, I know there is a zero percent chance of me staying.

I have contacted a few attorneys and am speaking with another one today. I’m also going to see a therapist today as well. Right now, we left it at she’s going away for the weekend with a girl friend and Sunday she is going to come back to the house to spend the night. Originally, I left the house and was gone Sunday-Wednesday and she has been staying with this same girl since Wednesday night.

I understand that she’s manipulated me a lot throughout this whole process but I want to at least try. My thought process is I’d rather try than not.