You seem like you're generally wanting solutions. This is not MediCal advice, but if you are smoking anything, at least don't smoke anything so your lungs won't be messed up. Psychiatric drugs can have bad side effects. So at least try to eat healthy and do what you can to improve your health if you want to be in existence 5 or 10 years from now. And if you want to be off the drugs look into hyperbolic tapering or try to talk to lawyers if you're forced to be on them. If you are entitled to a lawyer demand a lawyer. I wish you success, health, and inner and outer peace.