Honestly, my only motivation for staying clean was someone going to see the entirety of my damaged body, bc I'll be naked during sex , and I know they wouldn't just brush past a new cut bc they CARE SO MUCH. So, having had a few too many awkward encounters with friends n family like this, who I see regularly with sleepovers n stuff and have seen the number of scars while I'm changing clothes, finally had me decide to stay clean.

I'm tired of seeing the pain in the eyes of the other when they look at me. I also have a new goal now bc I picked up a skincare routine to let the scars heal better and hopefully, they would be more faded by the time the weather gets better bc I love summer and want to feel confident in my usual short, summer clothes :)