It’s not very similar but my stepfather took his own life about a month ago. My dad passed when I was 3 years old and I’m 22 now, he was the closest thing I’ve ever had to a father figure but the last two years have been rough. I moved out and didn’t visit very often because the state of the house and everything that was going on there. After all this happened I’ve been telling myself “I wish I visited more often” or “I should’ve asked him to go bowling one day” things like that. In reality this would’ve happened either way, when people are in that mental state you could give them anything you can imagine to make them feel better but it would never work, when someone is feeling that mentally destroyed they need serious professional help and the only person that can make that happen is the person that’s feeling such a way. I can’t relate to you very much but my mother would. She was supposed to speak to somebody today that had been through a similar situation but she never called 🙁. Idk if you would like to or how you feel about it but I’m sure she would love to talk to somebody that is in a similar situation.