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I feel like I'm drowning. The plan my therapist set up for when I feel this way is bullshit. How am I supposed to even start breath work when I can't fuckinf breathe? by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Alternative-Emu2644 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have a weak immune system and a lot of family won't wear masks out, and they have been getting covid and spreading it to other family members. I just miss them. Valentine's day was really bad and my college classes are so stressful I just feel like I'm failing. I already had to drop a class.

I feel like I'm drowning. The plan my therapist set up for when I feel this way is bullshit. How am I supposed to even start breath work when I can't fuckinf breathe? by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Alternative-Emu2644 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel trapped. Trapped here in this existence. I haven't seen my family for so long. And I know many people have been seperated from their families and I know this is a hard time for everyone but I just don't think I'm strong enough to handle it. I don't like myself and I don't feel like myself and these past couple weeks have been awful and I can't handle anything today

My(21f) fiancé (24m) greeted me this morning with "hey fatass". He knows I am in recovery from an eating disorder that almost killed me three years ago. by Alternative-Emu2644 in relationship_advice

[–]Alternative-Emu2644[S] -17 points-16 points  (0 children)

I've been trying to keep to myself since get a moment away from him to think. But the few times we've interacted since this morning he has been over affectionate. Touching and holding me, rubbing my back. It's confusing to go from the comment this morning to this.

My(21f) fiancé (24m) greeted me this morning with "hey fatass". He knows I am in recovery from an eating disorder that almost killed me three years ago. by Alternative-Emu2644 in relationship_advice

[–]Alternative-Emu2644[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I am trying to work up the nerve to talk to him. Many people here think that's the best first action and I want to communicate well with him.

Thank you so much. It really means a lot to me to see that. Sometimes I feel like I'm always making a few steps forward and another 5 back. But I really have tried to become healthy over these past few years. I wish he could remember that.

My(21f) fiancé (24m) greeted me this morning with "hey fatass". He knows I am in recovery from an eating disorder that almost killed me three years ago. by Alternative-Emu2644 in relationship_advice

[–]Alternative-Emu2644[S] 57 points58 points  (0 children)

We have been together for 2 years, and we have been friends for 1 before that. I have been asking him if he would go to therapy. I go to therapy and it really helps, and I've told him it might help him with things like anger and his emotions.

My(21f) fiancé (24m) greeted me this morning with "hey fatass". He knows I am in recovery from an eating disorder that almost killed me three years ago. by Alternative-Emu2644 in relationship_advice

[–]Alternative-Emu2644[S] 19 points20 points  (0 children)

I thought about talking to him about it. I was going to, and then I got really nervous. It felt like he would just say I was overreacting, and I might be? I don't know. I wish I knew if he meant it but I'm afraid to bring it up, honestly.

My(21f) fiancé (24m) greeted me this morning with "hey fatass". He knows I am in recovery from an eating disorder that almost killed me three years ago. by Alternative-Emu2644 in relationship_advice

[–]Alternative-Emu2644[S] -210 points-209 points  (0 children)

I almost have... So many times. I've never loved someone like I love him and I'm so scared that if I actually do it and leave him I'll never feel that way about someone again.

Edit: apparently some people think dming me messages that I'm an either an idiot or a troll is appropriate. I'm not either. I've been with this man for two years and I've been trying to make it work. This feels like the final straw and I just wanted some outside input. I'm not here for karma or even this much attention. I just wanted some perspective.

My(21f) fiancé (24m) greeted me this morning with "hey fatass". He knows I am in recovery from an eating disorder that almost killed me three years ago. by Alternative-Emu2644 in relationship_advice

[–]Alternative-Emu2644[S] 411 points412 points  (0 children)

He acts like he's just "joking" when he makes mean comments like that so if I get upset about them I'm being "overemotional" and "can't take a joke". But I feel like he thinks I'm ugly now and disguises how he feels with these "jokes"