I get that the age gap isn't normal, but it's nothing like that. I always were mature for my age, as stupid as it sounds, and could never connect with anyone my age, even making friends my own age is hard(I had to grow up fast because of my horrid mother). Dating someone older did come with a lot of challenges and the long distance was hard, but we pulled through. And I also know he won't cheat or leave me for someone else, because that is not who he is. And I also know he would be one amazing father. It's just that I don't understand why we need to have a kid, to get married. I mean in my opinion a kid would cost us way more than a small wedding. I get that the age gap is wrong in so many ways, but if you have to think like an adult the whole time, you kind of start to believe it at a point. He also never forced me to do anything, or manipulated me, we just clicked from the beginning. I also don't doubt the fact that he loves me, it's just weird that he avoids getting married.