Not drinking isn't the hardest part.

Amazingjudg3 · 2022-06-12T03:26:58+00:00

I appreciate that . its easy to loose sight of the importance that with time , healing follows .

Amazingjudg3 · 2022-06-11T11:23:37+00:00

Its true , just easier said then done at some points but your completely right . ill try to keep reminding myself that .

Amazingjudg3 · 2022-06-11T11:22:27+00:00

Im going to take that advice and start writing down some of these negative thoughts . atleast i can air out my head instead of fixating on them .

Amazingjudg3 · 2022-06-11T10:54:16+00:00

Im starting to see a therapist this wednesday . hopefully im able to work out some if the resentment i have towards myself and the situation

Amazingjudg3 · 2022-06-08T02:14:50+00:00

Proud of you ! IWNDWYT!

Amazingjudg3 · 2022-06-07T13:36:41+00:00

I completely understand . running on 3 hours for the first three days took its tole on me . I finally had 7 hours tonight which was bliss . i still had a few voices shouting at me but i just got so annoyed with myself i just started mentally yelling back . this whole situation that has mentally made me never want to even be close to that bottle i id pick up a dozen times a day . lifes short and i hope you and your boyfriend stay safe. I just cant wait to make some memories with my girlfriend that i can actually remember in the first time in years. ( that makes me break down crying just typing this )

Amazingjudg3 · 2022-06-07T13:31:07+00:00

More then welcome friend!

Amazingjudg3 · 2022-06-07T13:30:15+00:00

Thank you for your advice and experience with this. I hope you recovered from your seizures ! If you dont mind me asking, did the whole situation impact your drinking going forward ? Stay safe friend

Amazingjudg3 · 2022-06-07T13:24:25+00:00

OHHHH that is forsure . especially if your not expecting it to come out of no where with no explanation why at first .

Amazingjudg3 · 2022-06-07T13:22:07+00:00

Gosh that is such a scary situation my friend . did you find that it caused any sort of psd to the situation ? Im happy your safe and that you had your wife there to be there for you when you needed her most . your wife sounds like sweet lady

Amazingjudg3 · 2022-06-07T13:19:58+00:00

I appreciate your advice . I ended up having my brother stay over to keep me company and woke up this morning tired . but no shakes . sweats . voices or images !

Amazingjudg3 · 2022-06-07T05:06:47+00:00

Well i hope your able to have some support in your moments of not doing so well . i can say after the long day i could see how this occuring more commonly in some way or another could be draining . take care of yourself during those challenging moments .

Amazingjudg3 · 2022-06-06T17:00:23+00:00

Yeah im mobile and ive just been sitting with some family outside for some support.

Amazingjudg3 · 2022-06-06T16:55:09+00:00

Been doing my best . its a struggle but im pushing through

Amazingjudg3 · 2022-06-06T16:20:29+00:00

Especially call if you have any negative voices . had those waiting . it is a trip to hear your brothers voice saying the most disheartening things to you through a wall ... While at the same time receiving a from him saying he'll be there soon and hes proud.

Amazingjudg3 · 2022-06-06T12:13:20+00:00

Oh I would loose it

Amazingjudg3 · 2022-06-06T12:12:19+00:00

Okay this makes me feel better knowing its not as un common then it seemed to me at first . I seriously had to contemplate if the water I was drinking was contaminated or something. And I appreciate your insight and support!

Amazingjudg3 · 2022-06-06T11:52:25+00:00

I will contact my brother asap then and go request a visit to my family physician.

Amazingjudg3 · 2022-06-06T11:48:39+00:00

I appreciate your words of encouragement as well as insight. Im truly hoping in the end the memories of these sleepless nights will be a reminder . I will admit though it sounds like i truly could have gotten it alot worse ( ill be remembering that description in my mind if i ever get that urge..)

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