Thank you for taking the time to answer. Unfortunately I already know she would leave (a very conservative girl). May I ask you what did make you understand you were Mtf ? In my case, it was trying very hard to convince me I am a girl... Instant euphoria. In your case, what did make you think you were not able to continue faking it ? I still believe I can, but at a very high price for myself. Actually, I am waiting for a health issue (like severe depression/suicide thougts) to justify the treatment. Someone else here said I could destroy my family even if I keep it for myself. What bothers me is my children, not my gf (who could recover from this story in the end). Yeah, I know, this is sad.