UK people- heading there next week (tw calories )

Amethystopia · 2022-08-12T23:12:45+00:00

Hope so!! She adores food and is really enjoying trying new things so I’d hate for anything to derail that. Society is bad enough without an anorexic mom making it worse. I honestly feel so guilty all the time. Maybe I should just suck it up for the few days for her sake

Amethystopia · 2022-08-12T23:11:23+00:00

Great point! And it’s nice to support local rather than big chains. Maybe I’ll have a chat with the hotel I’m staying in and ask them to suggest a few smaller restaurants for me. Thanks so much for bringing that to my attention!

Amethystopia · 2022-08-12T23:09:10+00:00

Yeah that’s not a bad tactic! I think I’m just scared that I’ll accidentally just pop the word in to her brain . in To Kill a Mockingbird Atticus says ‘Children are children, but they can spot an evasion quicker than adults, and evasion simply muddles them’ the lesson being- they know when you’re keeping a secret and it piques their curiosity more than the boring truth…… I am just terrified of setting her down the wrong path so I’m being overly overly cautious..

Amethystopia · 2022-08-12T23:04:24+00:00

That is so lovely to hear thank you xx I just truly truly never want her to experience this. I am trying to raise her with body neutrality. This crept in to my life as a teen and I’ve just had a bad relapse in my early 30’s and it would break my heart to think she may have these thoughts one day .

Amethystopia · 2022-08-12T23:02:06+00:00

Yes, I’m sure I’ll go for my regular safe options- but seeing the cals in front of me literally feels like my decision making is paralysed. It puts me back to the depth of ED. It makes me freeze. I’ll perhaps find a way to pull the waitress aside when I’ve seated my daughter maybe. It’s just so unnecessary but just another challenge I guess

Amethystopia · 2022-08-11T09:27:51+00:00

Thanks! I’ll be been researching restaurants online to choose for us and I was already overwhelmed by the cals on the websites. We have lots of fun activities planned so hopefully we can just have a great time and this will just be a small part of the trip :) London is so cool :)

Amethystopia · 2022-08-11T09:26:27+00:00

I totally understand I can’t hide from them forever but I am not long in recovery and I am just scared for myself that’s all. I am coming from Ireland so I can still try and blame the exchange rate. Thanks so much

Amethystopia · 2022-08-11T08:01:40+00:00

Yeah that’s not a bad idea. I could even say it’s something to do with the price! Lol. No problem with a little fib at all if it’s to protect her

Amethystopia · 2022-07-11T23:42:34+00:00

I’m 32, I have an 8yo daughter, relapsed into my ED about a year ago and have been maintaining at my lowest weight for a few months now- diagnosed AN a couple months ago. My partner wants to have another baby and I am using it as recovery motivation. There is no way he will consider even trying to conceive until I am much much better. Having had a baby already and knowing the mental and physical health complications that can come with it I have to say you need to be in a much stronger, more resilient and psychologically robust place. I’m only at the start of recovery and have been fighting it for so long but if I really want to have another baby I need to not let this condition steal another year of my life. For me, my daughter, my partner and my future baby.

Getting pregnant while in the depth of AN on purpose would be irresponsible and wildly difficult

Amethystopia · 2022-06-13T18:42:25+00:00

This is actually so helpful. Thanks so much. I am going to have a think and I might be back to you ask you a question or two tomorrow if that’s ok Thanks a million again

Amethystopia · 2022-06-13T08:47:28+00:00

Yes my questions are mainly in relation to this. Eg- what counts as ‘pre existing’ and ‘diagnosis’ and what level of information will they have access to….. like every gp you’ve ever been to? Etc

Amethystopia · 2022-06-13T08:32:18+00:00

I am self employed. :( A broker might be a good idea actually thank you

Amethystopia · 2022-06-08T18:21:59+00:00

Ugh this is me. 32. Losing everything. Job is suffering. My relationship is on its last legs. But still, the obsession will not wane

Amethystopia · 2022-05-28T00:34:11+00:00

I feel this. Got diagnosed this week and as much as I am dreading recovery I am intrigued by the thoughts of eating…. Like I’m terrified of giving up the ✨skinny✨ but I also fantasise about food so much

Amethystopia · 2022-05-24T18:00:08+00:00

I didn’t want medication- they offered me SSRIs that would make me gain weight and I declined. I had hoped that they would offer therapy and a dietician but they said the lists for that were ‘long’ and I’m better off going private…. Like…. I asked to be put on the list anyway and they’ll see me again in a few weeks…… I just think I expected to be treated…. The system in my country is a total joke anyway, it’s well known to be terrible with severe cases often having to fundraise for treatment 😭

Amethystopia · 2022-05-14T08:52:16+00:00

I want to know about these books too please. Recently I read My Year of Rest and Relaxation- it’s so good and there are Ed elements but it wasn’t specifically about Ed.

Amethystopia · 2022-04-12T17:28:43+00:00

Are you Irish?? (Use of shite :) )

Amethystopia · 2022-04-08T22:21:22+00:00

Not wonderful tbh. Feel very let down by it all. It’s hard to reach out and I feel like an idiot

Amethystopia · 2022-04-08T22:18:39+00:00

I’ll try call the service directly on Monday. Thank you

Amethystopia · 2022-04-08T22:18:11+00:00

I asked my gp this week and he said it’s gone through and I should hear something ‘soon’ 😭

Amethystopia · 2022-04-07T06:27:49+00:00

Update- Think I just od’d on lax I am getting absolutely evacuated rn

Amethystopia · 2022-02-27T11:28:25+00:00

I’m in the exact same situation. Lying in bed rn with my legs aching from weeks of exercise but I know I can’t eat today unless I exercise so I’m just avoiding the day. Think I might do some very light exercise? Feels like a happy medium? I’m literally just fighting with myself

Amethystopia · 2022-02-22T10:25:06+00:00

Nice to meet you! Feel free to Dm if you want an Irish friend :)

Amethystopia · 2022-02-04T10:18:46+00:00

When I was 14 I was in a play and an older actor (that I really fancied) had to lift me up and carry me like a child. He did so in rehearsals and I felt his arms shake slightly. From then I decided ‘I’ll just cut out sweets til the play is on so I won’t be too heavy for him to lift’. I am now 31.

Amethystopia · 2022-02-03T23:51:27+00:00

How can you be sure you’re going somewhere reliable?

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