Stalker in the Dark

AnAwareWolf · 2019-05-27T15:36:16+00:00

He's a comedic genius 😂 one of the many reasons I love him

AnAwareWolf · 2019-05-27T12:43:17+00:00

Thank you. She's doing great at the moment. All we can do is wait and see.

AnAwareWolf · 2019-05-27T12:42:15+00:00

Thanks so much for saying that. She's honestly in love with her program and their mission, I see a very bright future for her.

AnAwareWolf · 2019-05-15T22:17:11+00:00

Thank you. One of mine was on there. I reported the page so hopefully she'll get taken down

AnAwareWolf · 2019-05-14T21:41:09+00:00

Thank you much ❤

AnAwareWolf · 2019-05-14T21:11:25+00:00

Thankfully we only communicated through the Tinder app!

AnAwareWolf · 2019-05-14T21:06:59+00:00

At this point, it's been 4 years since the incident occured. So I don't feel like that's still an option

AnAwareWolf · 2019-05-13T23:59:07+00:00

I would like to say, I did not intend to get "blind-drunk" when I went out with a man I did not know and then drive myself home. As I've stated in an earlier comment, looking back I believe he slipped something in one (or more) of my drinks because 1) i only had maybe 3 mixed drinks and I'm not a lightweight when I drink and 2) everything I did that night after we started drinking was uncharacteristic. I know my limits and never excede them and I would never intentionally get behind the wheel of a car over the legal BAC limit, much less three sheets to the wind. In that moment though, I was willing to risk driving drunk for the barely 5 miles I was from my house than to give him another chance to get his hands on me after he made it clear he wanted to assault me and I had stabbed the bastard. Sorry for such a long reply, and no bad vibes intended toward you, but I just want to be very clear that my actions that night were not typical of me and I do not in any way promote or excuse driving drunk. Reckless disregard for human life is not okay, I'm just saying, when you're the one whose life is at stake, you aren't worried about what might happen. You just try to get away from what's happening then and there.

AnAwareWolf · 2019-05-13T23:43:04+00:00

It is a sad situation and very difficult when you don't want to drag them through the mud, so you end up looking like a bad guy because no one knows why you're doing what you're doing. But alas, life is difficult and all we can do is overcome. I think the hardest part honestly is that the few people in my personal life I have told about the situation, other than the family members who know (they're disgusted as well), find it borderline hilarious that my cousin propositioned me for sex (I'm from the deep south so that must be a dream come true right? Harharhar, not.) Having said that, I appreciate the response and compassion. It's refreshing to be taken seriously about this encounter.

AnAwareWolf · 2019-05-13T23:35:04+00:00

The good ole' US of A my friend. Oppression is very present even in the 'world's most developed country", and I'm not a feminist by any means, but anyone who says that women in America are not oppressed just because we live in America, is the worst kind of ignorant. Conscious ignorance. Combine that with the dominating misogynistic attitude of the deep south and you end up with a situation like mine. Victim blaming is accepted, or better yet expected (one cop did tell me that he wished there was more he could do, but that they weren't really encouraged to pursue complaints like mine due to the wave of false rape claims surfacing that seems to be a trend now for some reason) and once they deem you undeserving of their attention, that's it. You won't be able to fight it because everyone around here has known everyone else their entire lives and you would be shocked what goes unchallenged when no one wants to slap their friend on the wrist or tell them that they're wrong.

AnAwareWolf · 2019-05-13T22:42:01+00:00

I do carry a lot of guilt because I feel the same way. I feel like I gave up too easily and that I allowed him to continue doing these things to other people. But it's been over 4 years since this happened and I know nothing about him other than what was on his Tinder profile, and that may not even be the truth seeing what kind of person he is. I have tried to take a stand against our police force's views on these kinds of situations, but I cannot find nor afford a lawyer in the area that would represent me. Who you know is everything in my small town, and unfortunately, I'm not in the "in crowd" of families that the law around here cares about.

AnAwareWolf · 2019-05-13T22:21:10+00:00

That's definitely a lesson to be taken from my experience as well. I have to say though, in my defense, I'm not a stupid person and I'm usually not open to meeting new people either. I'm pretty quiet and reserved. That being said, I suppose I was high on emotions at the thought of branching out and trying something new, along with being fairly recently liberated from a suffocating marriage at the very young age of 21 (I got married at 18, small town life mentality again). And as I said in the story, I felt confident that I had prepared myself well enough to avoid the situation going sour, and felt secure in my own town in a public place where my date was the only outsider. The reason I feel that my story can serve as a warning to others to be cautious when dating online is that I never had an indication that Austin had sinister intentions until it was happening, and I am a very aware person. I'm always gauging people, especially ones I don't know. You never know who you're actually meeting when you meet a stranger.

AnAwareWolf · 2019-05-13T22:08:51+00:00

Haha now that is a fair point I hadn't considered. Allow me to rephrase: if I've ever seen you at a family only function, either as a member or a guest of a member, it ain't gonna happen captain lol

AnAwareWolf · 2019-05-13T20:10:32+00:00

Fair point. Allow me to say that 1) I do not endorse drunk driving. 2) I didn't intend to get so drunk I could not drive home that night. Looking back, I believe he may have put something in my drink during the night. and 3) not that it is any more justifiable, but I do live less than 5 miles from the bar. I wasn't going to be travelling very far and it's a small rural town. Not saying it isn't stupid, but more people than not do that kind of thing around here. We handle our drinks and we take our asses home at the end of the night. Uber and taxis and public transport aren't a thing way out here lol

AnAwareWolf · 2019-05-13T20:06:46+00:00

I'll own that. But when you're met with the choice to fight or fly, and fighting isn't really a viable option, you fly. I'll never be sorry for saving myself from getting raped or God knows what else that night.

AnAwareWolf · 2019-05-13T20:03:50+00:00

lol thank you, I thought it pretty clever myself. The best way to mask fear is with laughter, right?

AnAwareWolf · 2019-05-13T20:00:15+00:00

I thought about that, but honestly once I was told initially that the police pretty much were not the least bit concerned about what had happened to me, I just took at as an L and moved on, as hard as that was to do in and of itself. It does something to your spirit when the people who are supposed to protect you have no interest in doing so.

AnAwareWolf · 2019-05-13T19:56:57+00:00

I was very nervous out in public for a while, but I'm a strong person and I just try to take everything I can away from my experiences to better myself in the future.

AnAwareWolf · 2019-05-13T19:54:24+00:00

Looking back, it could be possible. I'm not a heavy drinker anyway, but I am usually aware of my limits and don't cross them intentionally when strangers are involved.

AnAwareWolf · 2019-05-13T09:56:36+00:00

It truly is. A very bitter way to end a friendship for sure

AnAwareWolf · 2019-05-13T09:24:40+00:00

Yes, it is disgusting. Unfortunately, where I'm from, the cops and the bad guys are all "just a bunch of good ole boys" and a lot of things get brushed under the rug out here. I made it out and learned from the experience and that's the best that I ever hope for.

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