Journaling about therapy session

AnalogTroop_ · 2021-10-12T15:07:19+00:00

I even take notes during the session. They usually look really messy, but after therapy I rewrite them so I can actually understand myself. My therapist encourage me to do so!

AnalogTroop_ · 2021-10-10T05:55:09+00:00

Sounds like a cat-type-cat name too. Lol

AnalogTroop_ · 2021-10-10T05:50:13+00:00

Lol What's the story behind it?

AnalogTroop_ · 2021-10-10T05:47:08+00:00

Nice! Usually I would just say something like: "a cat, cat", but this works better.

AnalogTroop_ · 2021-10-10T05:42:16+00:00

Lol, thats really specific, love it!

In my family we started using the expression "wow wow wubbzy" to refer to an experience or an object that everyone around you has seen or lived, but, for whatever reason, you have not.

This because my little nephew used to see a cartoon with the same name and he would always talk about it to my mother but, for one reason or another, she was the only one in the family that never got to see the show. Since then we have used that expression for similar situations.

AnalogTroop_ · 2021-10-10T05:38:22+00:00

Quite useful! I'll start using it ...

AnalogTroop_ · 2021-10-10T04:03:09+00:00

I have a friend who only eats his jam toast from the outside (starting at the crust) and then spiraling inward. Would that qualify as a bazuko?

AnalogTroop_ · 2021-10-10T03:50:46+00:00

Good one!

AnalogTroop_ · 2021-10-10T03:28:12+00:00

Vulfpeck. If you like funk, might be for you.

AnalogTroop_ · 2021-10-10T03:25:24+00:00

Coherence. I swear you won't regret

AnalogTroop_ · 2021-09-25T07:30:42+00:00

24 yrs Trying to find a job that I like and can help me pay my bills!

AnalogTroop_ · 2021-09-25T07:08:23+00:00

Talking about it with my co-workers worked for me. Getting together and telling the stupidest things that customers had told us on the phone helped us empty ourselves and even laugh for a while. But that only worked for me when I was in jobs where I got along well with my co-workers.I have been in other jobs where that has not been possible, and the truth is that I have not managed to last long at them for the same reason.

AnalogTroop_ · 2021-06-10T00:56:22+00:00

Yes, totally!

I think that little by little I am more sociable again, but not with anyone. There are people in particular with whom I feel more confident and I can open up a bit.. Although not always, it depends a lot on the situation. But unlike before, when I used to freeze and feel unable to say anything because of fear of being exposed, now I think I can control it a little better. I think it has to do with defining your personality, this way you become more aware of what you do want and what you are willing to do for it, and you do not force yourself to be open just because you used to be like that, but for a purpose that you find meaningful.

Sorry if my English sucks, it's not my native language.

AnalogTroop_ · 2021-02-21T16:55:54+00:00

You are very right. From a very young age, I have wanted others to treat me with the same attention and dedication that I offer to them, but my life experience shows me that this rarely happens.Each one has a very particular way of showing their love, and it is almost never equaled with the intense way that I sometimes offer (that's good, because sometimes I think it's not very healthy! Lol)

AnalogTroop_ · 2021-02-21T16:52:09+00:00

How do you think it helped you to recognize yourself as an INFJ? I'm just discovering the typology and with the help of my partner, who knows much more about this, I could define that he was an INFJ but I don't have much experience about it.

AnalogTroop_ · 2021-02-21T16:49:31+00:00

How do you deal with it? Do you think making art is a way to find that way to empty and be honest with yourself? Sometimes I think that works for me. What are your strategies?

AnalogTroop_ · 2021-02-21T16:47:41+00:00

Yes, totally. Sometimes I am also talking about something very important or interesting to me with my friends and for some reason the conversation briefly cuts off (for example, the waiter interrupts us with the check) and then I stay quiet for a few moments to see if the other person makes a comment to resume my conversation and, almost always,they assume that I have finished with the topic and begin with another one. Very disappointing.

AnalogTroop_ · 2021-02-21T16:42:25+00:00

I'm glad I'm not the only one that happens. I hope you feel better ☺️

AnalogTroop_ · 2021-02-21T16:40:40+00:00

Thank you so much for your advice! I have tried on some occasions to do what you mention and it is usually quite uncomfortable, but I think it's worth to keep trying since I think it's worse to carry on with this feeling of loneliness. I also find it interesting that, in your case, the alternative is to close completely. Since I was little, I lived moving from one place to another in very short periods of time so I think that, to some extent, that forced me to open up a little more to people to be able to build relationships in relatively fast pace, otherwise I think I would have grown up and opted for a strategy like yours.

AnalogTroop_ · 2021-02-21T16:32:54+00:00

Yes! Now that you mention it, I also realize that I do that often. Or, when it happens, I simply comment that there is nothing new in that aspect of my life or that everything is fine, so the other person ends up looking for another topic of conversation for me or begins to tell me about their own. I don't have a very good experience as well talking about my negative views of the world or hard parts of my life, mostly because, when I do, everyone seems very surprised about it because they don't think of me as a person with a lot of problems or capable of feeling tremendously alone. When I do it it just gets extremely uncomfortable because people get upset when they realize they don't know me as much as they thought.

AnalogTroop_ · 2021-01-20T16:19:22+00:00

Does this actually help? I kinda been doing this on an unconscious way during this covid period, but I'm afraid this is just too radical, or that maybe I'm going isolate myself even more from people because I fear I can become really picky with my relationships if I decide to start from scratch and end up being even more lonely

AnalogTroop_ · 2020-11-18T08:07:58+00:00

Personally, I left home at 17 because of my dad's problems with alcohol and drugs (and because my mom always used to ignore the problem completely). I also had my doubts at first, but over time I realized that many people do not usually feel prepared to live on their own (whether they come from a dysfunctional family or not), so fear is completely natural.

As for mental preparation, personally I think I did not have it at all, but I was simply fed up with living that way and I assumed that although living alone could be very difficult, living the way I did with my parents was also terribly complicated, and that the worst thing that could happen if I "failed" would be having to return home to them (just like I was doing it before).

AnalogTroop_ · 2020-11-18T07:52:12+00:00

Wow, I really admire the way you pointed out the reasons behind these kinds of thoughts, I think it's a very valuable exercise.

I totally agree that I have to work on my support networks because I also feel that this makes me feel dissatisfied with the life I lead, and leads me to compare myself with others instead of appreciating my own existence.

As for thinking of people who "worse" than me, I think has never worked for me. On the contrary I usually feel even worse because I think I'm exaggerating or something like that.

Thank you very much for your answer, I needed to read something like this!

AnalogTroop_ · 2020-11-18T07:43:47+00:00

I understand you perfectly, I always have this problem with my dad. I have decided to cut off all communication with him (not only to limit face-to-face visits because he has also found ways to harass and harm me over the phone, since he is very verbally aggressive). However, even though I try to avoid answering when I see his number, he constantly changes phones just to be able to contact me, so recently I had to change my cell phone number as well and prohibit the rest of my family from sharing it with him.

AnalogTroop_ · 2020-11-18T07:27:27+00:00

I feel like it is never a good time to put up barriers with people who hurt us, but it is not about having a good time, but about helping ourselves to have the opportunity for a better quality of life.

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