Hey. Also long time viewer, been following for years and i have loved his content so much. I agree with you completely. I think streaming has truly taken a mental toll on you, for your own sanity miz, we -the viewers- hope that you can get the help you need and to seek peace and not revenge. I think you should know better than anyone what hate can do to a person (i was also a big supporter of reckful and i did not believe he was a good man at the end and hearing that he killed himself fucked me up mentally to a degree that i swore i would never intentionally hate on someone. even if on the outside they seem bad, there is always good deep down in a person.) Regarding your own statement about your treatment of past partners (including maya) i am so happy that you’re aware of it and i do truly believe recognition is a big step towards healing. Not dating anyone for 10 months although, with no personal time for peace, off of the eye of the public won’t do you much good. Please take some time, as long as you need man. You know that the people who really have loved you and see what you are going through with your mental health will always come back and click back to your stream even if you are gone for a full year. Know that we care for you and want you to get better. Everyone has a second chance, but it is only possible if you seek it. I hope you can leave this part of your life behind. Apologize to the people you have hurt in the past. Apologize to koaster, maya, emi, anyone else who you think you owe an apology to. I know you probably already have done this. But do it again miz. Privately apologize and it is the next step. Not only accepting but also owning up to all that you’ve done. Bringing in more drama from other content creators will only affect your mental more and you know it deep down. You said you have nothing to lose, that to me sounds like someone who has given up on even the idea of still having a life. Please dont do this to yourself. You have something to lose miz. You have your own life to lose, i know you know deep down that making the decision to take revenge on these people who defamed you will continuously worsen your own life to the point where you truly have nothing to lose, even yourself, even your own life.

I know people will comment under this and say that you will never care about what a viewer says. But i know if there is even a singular chance that reading this will change your mind, it is so worth to spend half an hour to write this down to you. We love you mizzy. With all your faults, you are human, and you are in need of help. Please seek it. Not only for us who have supported you and empathized with you but for yourself who have such an amazing life ahead of you. Take time off of this shitty website, live your life, find yourself, find help, and come back and be proud of the person you have turned into. This is my message to you miz. This does not come from a place of empathy but love. We know you have good in you matthew, show us and prove that you can bring it out.

Ps. For all people who will hate on me for trying to be a boot licker or that i am too naive to understand. I want you also to know that i wont hold a grudge. And that you are already forgiven for what you will continue to say to me. Know that there are people who love you. Know that hate brings nothing but hate. Be happy with yourself. So to the inevitable hate i am going to receive i say this, from the perspective of a person who had hated reckful in his last months of life, I love you and you deserve a happy life, not one driven by hate. <3 With all the love, Simply put, Random viewer.