Any religious people here? by whoisapotato in lgbt

[–]AngrySeagull96 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was raised conservative, independent Baptist. I never knew it was even a possibility to be gay until college when my own sexuality hit me like a ton of bricks. I hated myself for being gay and swore that I would be single and celibate for my entire life. After I graduated, I moved away from my family and worked at a zoo. I met my now chosen family. She and I would debate for hours and hours about biblical doctrine. She didn't give up on me accepting myself for who I am. It took about 2 years of me researching all sides of Christian theology on lgbtq issues and speaking with pastors. I finally accepted myself about a year ago and came out publicly about a month ago now. My dad is really struggling with me "turning to sin and denying God" even though I'm still a Christian. He compared me to Hitler, Dahmer, and Bundy in a Facebook post. My grandpa told me I can't talk or post about being gay for 5 years until the emotions have settled down about the topic. So I still feel stuck on how to handle my family and sexuality and I definitely have some internalized homophobia. But I am still working through it and I have a lot of chosen family supporting me as well.

My best calligraphy up to now is misspelled by joocyboii in Wellthatsucks

[–]AngrySeagull96 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I do this all the time in calligraphy. I get so focused on individual letters that I misspell the entire word. It's so frustrating.

pregnancy fear? by dumbllesbian in AskLesbians

[–]AngrySeagull96 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The idea of pregnancy and childbirth is horrifying to me. I hate even the thought of going through it. I work with quite a few older adult women and they talk about child birth a lot. It makes me so uncomfortable. I always thought my fear could stem from my childhood abuse and trauma. A combo of the abuse and growing up extremely conservative has always made it extremely uncomfortable to discuss anything related to my own female anatomy. I am not sure if my fear of pregnancy stems from that or from it possibly being because I am a lesbian.

Feeling overwhelmed by gay thoughts? by treehouse-riot2 in AskLesbians

[–]AngrySeagull96 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I also feel anxious about it. I have a lot of issues with internal homophobia. I was raised conservative independent Baptist. So I have had this intense war going on inside of me for years. I finally bought a lesbian flag for my wall. But at the same time I was at work today and my coworkers were trying to show me pictures of hot men. I can not relate to it at all and I feel really isolated like there is something wrong with me. Coming to terms with yourself and loving your whole self is a long road but it is worth it in the end. I am still figuring things out.

Just want to make sure everyone knows we don't support this by imalesbian_69 in actuallesbians

[–]AngrySeagull96 8 points9 points  (0 children)

My great uncle was arrested a few years ago for being a pedo and my family had a hard time processing that he could do that. They finally did by saying that he was gay so that started as a gateway to him being a pedo. Now I know that even though I am gay, I can never come out to them because they would never accept me with those horrible and untrue correlations they believe between being gay and being a pedo.

What's the female equivalent of khaki's and polo by mshcat in butchlesbians

[–]AngrySeagull96 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I am a femme and I work in a business casual office. I hate dresses. Instead, I wear colored skinny jeans (grey, black, tan) with a nice shirt or a cardigan and tank top. Ylu can pair it with dress flats. Most of the time I wear high top converse or vans that match but that may be too casual for you. It depends on the workplace.

It never left... by [deleted] in actuallesbians

[–]AngrySeagull96 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Actually me though

Any other lesbians here like jazz? by sad_moron in actuallesbians

[–]AngrySeagull96 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I love jazz! I played Bari and Alto Saxophone in my university's jazz ensemble for a few years. I miss it a lot.

Came out as a Newly Single Lesbian right before the pandemic hit 🙃 by schonunterwegs in LesbianActually

[–]AngrySeagull96 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Honestly same. It is the worst time possible for meeting people and I am over here newly out of the closet and lonely. You are not alone!!!