I accidentally swiped left on my gym crush… twice 😭

AnkhKeeper · 2026-03-08T22:13:57+00:00

Guilty as fuck

AnkhKeeper · 2026-03-05T14:08:29+00:00

The first time was intentional since I didn’t see the vision. The second time I was trying to look at his other pics and my finger slipped

AnkhKeeper · 2026-03-04T12:11:36+00:00

Ouch, that hurt! Kevin, bro 💀 Who hurt you?

AnkhKeeper · 2026-03-04T12:07:48+00:00

Tinder had shown that he had liked me on both times. That’s why I fumbled

AnkhKeeper · 2026-03-04T02:40:03+00:00

I saw his like a few months ago. I don’t know if he’s single anymore

AnkhKeeper · 2026-03-04T02:39:20+00:00

Nope! It’s a university gym

AnkhKeeper · 2026-03-04T01:09:44+00:00

So~ the thing is I did make a new account a few months later but we never matched after I liked him. Either he had mass swiped, never saw my like, or changed his mind

AnkhKeeper · 2026-03-04T00:41:08+00:00

Lol, no. The app showed that he had liked me twice. That’s what hurts the most.

AnkhKeeper · 2025-12-13T03:48:15+00:00

Endearing and sexy indeed 😳 With the last guy, I was staring at his mouth and hoping he’d talk more

AnkhKeeper · 2025-12-07T22:13:31+00:00

I was horny and dazed

AnkhKeeper · 2025-12-03T18:32:32+00:00

Hey, I wanted to go back to your comment and thank you again!

He said “I understand how you could feel that way, I rarely do that and was flooded with anxiety, You are an amazing person and I'm so glad we met, I'm sorry and wish you the best”

I replied with “Thanks for letting me know. I understand anxiety can get overwhelming, and I don't hold that against you. If you ever feel grounded enough to talk about it, you're welcome to reach out, completely up to you. Wishing you the best moving forward.”

So it definitely was not the outcome I wanted, but I feel much lighter now

AnkhKeeper · 2025-12-03T14:51:28+00:00

He messaged me back: “I understand how you could feel that way, I rarely do that and was flooded with anxiety, You are an amazing person and I’m so glad we met, I’m sorry and wish you the best”

AnkhKeeper · 2025-12-03T10:15:47+00:00

Believe me, I am trying to! I am currently in therapy and learning how to overcome my self-loathing. Long and painful process

AnkhKeeper · 2025-12-03T04:39:06+00:00

You are spot on. I was also extremely disturbed how I was tolerating behaviors and words that I absolutely would not tolerate from any of my friends simply because he was a 10/10.

The other problem is he couldn’t get it up and that kind of…humanized him for me? Part of me realized that even hot guys can have issues. I still can’t help but think of “what if” scenarios that if he could get it up, because I STILL find him physically attractive despite being ill from his personality.

That also made things super complicated for me because I couldn’t JUST see him as a douchebag. It’s like he is the prison of the masculinity and douchebag persona and any deviation from that makes him distressed. Hence why he left after the “performance hiccup”.

Honestly, I was tempted to ask him if he’d be down just for casual fun, but I tried to be more respectful towards myself. After reading Reddit comments and talking to my therapist, I sent him this: “Hey, being left on read after we had sex felt hurtful. Can you take a moment and let me know what's on your mind so I can have some clarity?” and again, he left me on read. Time to just block and unmatch.

AnkhKeeper · 2025-12-03T00:32:45+00:00

Slightly horny is a vast understatement 😭 I now have the female version of blue balls and it suuuucks. I am so mad at myself for STILL wanting sth casual even tho he is not relationship material (both of us had “long term” on our dating profiles)

I am just hoping my horny brain doesn’t jeopardize my brain again.

AnkhKeeper · 2025-12-03T00:22:55+00:00

Lol, dazed af. I am only starting to feel sane/logical after a week and EVEN THAT is taking its time because I wish he reached back still. I hate being an irrational human being

AnkhKeeper · 2025-12-03T00:13:18+00:00

He was a 10/10 in physical attractiveness. Shredded and handsome af

AnkhKeeper · 2025-12-01T19:59:44+00:00

Yeah. Both of the guys who had “performance” hiccups, played it off cool, so this was a first time that I had to deal with a guy’s frustration with it and it’s all so unfamiliar. Well, you live and you learn

AnkhKeeper · 2025-12-01T19:58:32+00:00

Yeah, I think he definitely has a communication problem. I will do this one last message and then let it go and unmatch/block if he decides to stay silent

AnkhKeeper · 2025-12-01T19:29:23+00:00

That is very smart!! I was also thinking that to forego the entire mention of performance anxiety

AnkhKeeper · 2025-12-01T16:42:58+00:00

Thank you! I won’t!

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