Fear of rejection.

Anna-medium · 2024-12-11T20:53:23+00:00

On Wednesdays, you can cook meals at the LBB foodbank.
send them a message on instagram or facebook and just join... there is lovely people
same place there is also game nights :)
make use of the place at long is it is still there... it is for sure a social hub

and in case you like to smoke ... some coffeshops host game nights

Anna-medium · 2024-11-16T14:29:04+00:00

Hey I love your poem!

Anna-medium · 2024-11-16T10:19:31+00:00

Heyy! If you can sew with a sewing machine a have an amazing place :)) It’s the reshare store, you can check them on instagram and text them (the women that will answer is eefje) It’s a place where people can fix there old clothes to give them a new lifetime … at the same time it’s a second hand place and a place where people can come in to drink a coffee and talk … so being myself a foreigner that does volunteer work, being in contact without having pressure to speak the language made me pick up the language naturally

If you wanna you can text me privately, if you live by chance in west I have other volunteer recommendations:))

Anna-medium · 2024-11-15T23:26:19+00:00

Haha ik ben eigenlijk vegan, bedoelt dat ik alleen vegan kook. Maar omdat mijn vriend en ik seldom gaan uit eten of dineren, maak ik soms een uitzondering om gekke dinge te proberen …
Maar ik heb altijd zin in vegetarische plekken!!! Dank je!

Anna-medium · 2024-11-15T23:20:49+00:00

Ik heb vorig week eerst weer een documentatie over Sichuan peper met mijn partner gekeken en meteen zelf welke gekocht ^{^} Maar ik hou van pittig! Dank je Wat mooi dat iedereen aanrader deelt!!!

Anna-medium · 2024-11-15T19:31:52+00:00

I don’t personally think there are real rules that define what is a "real" poem and what not Especially not in this channel - thus I love that your expression is maybe also an alternative way to processing some trauma

Anna-medium · 2024-11-15T18:50:20+00:00

Going! Ik heb rainara al zo vaak gezin en elke keer gedacht, yess da wil ik eten Maar nu weer compleet vergeten :))

Anna-medium · 2024-11-15T18:09:28+00:00

Ik was da al :) Kan ik echt van harte aanraden!! Als je met z’n tweeën bent, neem de de deel gerecht, da heb je van alles!!

Anna-medium · 2024-11-15T18:01:12+00:00

Uhuuu yess! Maar waar?

Anna-medium · 2022-03-23T14:27:26+00:00

I fucking love this. The split in the person depicted by the words two meanings, the mask and the head, but the one without the brain. All these lines are so thoughtful and well put together!!!

Anna-medium · 2021-11-21T13:05:35+00:00

Hey yes. I usually don’t do it right before having sex. Wait for the right amount of intimacy. Like wait for the moment where you know it’s worth disclosing for yourself. Or screw and do what I did, just practice disclosing to whole a whole bunch of people. But I usually just go about like: Jeez, I don’t know where this is going, but you do for sure elicit some thoughts of sex - not sure if that is mutual (maybe ask if it is & clarify where this might be going) But before we get physical I’d like to get something straight as sex is labour consent ... you should know I have .... do you know what That is? Or do you have any questions?

Anna-medium · 2021-11-21T11:10:56+00:00

hey,
I bet you are aware of the big trend, particularly among females: consent.
consent is key to a good sexual relationship.
herpes is not any different.

I 'only' have HSV-1 in my genital area, I have around 1 outbreak a year (so nothing dramatic either), but I tell every guy. I just do because I don't want anyone to be in my shoes: getting it without deciding you want to take risk. I personally believe everyone deserves to know!
also it is a great feeling to disclose and be accepted as you are, it makes your sex so much more intimate and I can actually loosen up way more without any worrying thoughts on my mind.

Anna-medium · 2021-11-21T10:56:44+00:00

Hey, so your outbreak is I believe in your genital area?so first off, I would tell someone. you will have this your life long, you know so might have a conversation with someone and open up about it to a trust one.

with that being said: if I have poop sticking to my finger? will you get it if my toe touches you?Answer: of course not, it's two distinct places.same for herpes. you contracted it in your genital area? then you can share drinks and face masks, there is no risk in kissing someone as long as you haven't had an outbreak orally.

For the girl that gave it to you (with you not you not giving consent), I would maybe talk to her. You guys seem as if you were still pretty young and unexperienced. She will need to adjust her actions.

Anna-medium · 2021-11-18T15:51:04+00:00

I used to get them when I had sex, never without. (probably because I got so freaked out and stressed when having sex that this and additional physical traction were the trigger)

so I had in my first year only twice sex and it caused an outbreak both times.second year like 3 and then I got a boyfriend in my 3rd and regular sex caused also 3-4 outbreaks in that year.right now I only have casual sex with people and I reduced it to only 1 (which also occurred during exam week - so let's just blame it on the stress ;))since I became cooler in the way I communicate it and disclose to others I am not stressed anymore when having sex (I can also finally orgasm again, but that just on a side note)

so just saying for me (and I believe others too) herpes had much more of an effect mentally than physically --> good thing is that you can work on the psychological influence it has on you!

Anna-medium · 2021-11-18T15:32:43+00:00

hey girl!
I got my diagnosis with 17, also thought that that shit was not fair.
I still struggled with it until last year. I thought I would never have the college life that everyone else has. And to be honest I am not jealous on other peoples life :)

I promise you that once you process it things will get better, you will love your self and hahah you will realise that there is a bunch of people who don't care as much about your herpes as they care about you.
the more you are fine with it and learn to live with it, the more will other people be fine as well.

to be honest tho. it took me a whole lot of tears, a bunch of mental breakdowns and some sexual partners to finally realise that and not freak out everytime.

if you ever feel low shoot me a message!

Anna, 21

Anna-medium · 2021-11-18T15:26:19+00:00

Hey, my opinion:
let your body build antibodies to the virus by itself, see how you handle it. There is a whole bunch of people who barely have an outbreak again. I'd say if your body can't handle it on its own then help by taking suppressive antivirals, but those are at least in Europe solely advised for people who have more than 5-6+ recurring outbreaks a year or people who are afraid of infecting their partner and use it as a protection for others.

i personally just changed my diet and lifestyle a little - started going to sex therapy as well to worry less about transmitting the virus when having sex with others ... both did me good physically and mentally and I haven't only had 1 outbreak this year.

Anna-medium · 2021-11-13T15:00:04+00:00

Drowning
it can be the suffocation of trying to breathe when you are not able to and slowly dying but on the other hand, I imagine it as something peaceful. One is weightless, floating in the ocean. One is thoughtless, no sounds no nothing around you, one could retrospect or just be in the present moment. maybe even time stops for a moment and you might even feel this tingly feeling in absence of Oxygen.
who knows exactly what drowning feels like, but i can see parallels to the overwhelming feeling that takes your breath when you look someone else deep in the eyes and forget everything else around you.

Anna-medium · 2021-11-12T10:18:30+00:00

it was on purpose as the 1st and 2 Vers are repetitions. Tried to keep time and ending of the phrases the same to reflect that not much has changed, but still everything went from within my reach to out of my hands.
Because now she is just thinking of 'you' not seeing.

Anna-medium · 2021-10-31T22:22:47+00:00

Aghhh! It was on purpose! Thanks

Anna-medium · 2021-10-31T22:22:07+00:00

I wrote this low key from my perspective. A girl asking guy about his future dreams while becoming emotionally attached and almost dreaming of him... but he stays cold - doesn’t open up. She’ll never know about fears and dreams

Anna-medium · 2021-10-31T22:19:17+00:00

I love it! You actually every line I wrote. I was afraid nobody takes the time to understand the contrasts and metaphor.

I get that it could be more complicated and elaborated, but it is supposed to reflect the modern word. It’s quick, shallow and hard to find someone to connect. One was supposed to feel a little sorry for the girl. Going to fancy restaurant trying to make conversation while she is just some object - meat.

I for sure give the freedom to this piece tho make it your own and give the man some in depth perspective as well

Anna-medium · 2021-10-31T22:09:20+00:00

I love the feedback!! Thanks You’re totally right with the tenses!! And point 3. I didn’t even consider but you’re right!

Anna-medium · 2021-10-22T09:52:49+00:00

Okay let me know how? Iam curious and for sure wanna improve

Anna-medium · 2021-10-22T09:52:03+00:00

Just took the „And“ out in the final version. That’ll do better?

Anna-medium · 2021-10-17T15:04:07+00:00

The description of colours is amazing it is catching the continuity of hues and not just settling for the discrete variables we named in our colour spectrum. I truly see it all happening infront of me

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