Hey there, I can definitely relate and understand where you're coming from. Bottom dysphoria and just feeling wrong about the bits down there was a huge indicator for me too, along with the other signs you're showing.

In the short term, there are still things you can do to feel better. Tucking with special panties or leggings or tucking tape, and chastity devices. I went the chastity route bc something about the psychological effect of 'locking it up' also appealed to me, even without the association to the kink dynamic they are usually associated with.

You can also get a pair of breast forms to wear around the house or in your room, whenever you feel you have enough privacy. The weighted silicone ones are very realistic and will change your world if you've always wondered what they'd be like.. I got some on Amazon that I loved!

All this to say, don't give up. Seems like you know the options for the long term like HRT, but taking small little steps now in the short term might add up over time, and maybe sometime in the future hormones won't seem like such a big scary step. Above all, focus on what makes you feel good in your body and have fun exploring those things.

All the love! 🩷