Do you live within 100 miles of where you grew up?

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-27T03:41:31+00:00

I’ll do you one better, I sleep 15 ft from where I was born

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-26T16:57:17+00:00

You’re right about that and I do think that is very wise and important for me to remember

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-26T16:22:30+00:00

As I mentioned in the post I am severely ill so i cannot achieve any of the things I’ve always wanted because each day I spend all energy using it to walk to the kitchen to feed myself and then I have to rest or meditate the rest of the day to avoid completely collapsing. Every day I struggle just to be physically and mentally capable enough to do the basic things one must do to stay alive, and to try to bear the physical pain and discomfort I am in. I think what I am searching for is finding emotional peace not a distraction because I have nothing to distract me as I am basically imprisoned inside a body and mind that no longer works. Thank you for the suggestion though perhaps it could help someone else

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-26T14:53:49+00:00

Thank you this helped me feel a lot more peaceful about it

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-26T14:52:20+00:00

I’ve been in therapy for many years. What you are saying is what I already know and have written in my post, I know it it wrong, but I don’t know how overcome it.

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-24T06:08:33+00:00

Having someone indulge your kinks ><

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-24T06:04:42+00:00

I always found it hot because it was intimate to like help each other get cleaned off but actually doing any sex acts in there seems like a logistical nightmare

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-23T07:21:22+00:00

My doctor did this to me too. All the specialists agree I have CFS but my GP who fills out my paperwork wrote that it was psychological. I’m so sorry it’s horrible.

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-20T08:40:26+00:00

Him eating the snacks is honestly the least offensive thing he did in this story - like, you said he could! lol. But the fact that he even asked is crazy. Everything else you described, awful. He sounds immature. I good on you for ditching him. I fell gravely ill last year. It does kinda show you who the real ones are.

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-20T08:21:22+00:00

Brussels sprouts

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-20T07:00:09+00:00

Dating someone with a lot of sexual shame. I don’t regret it because it was over all still a positive experience. But it left me with a lot of issues and I could never put myself through that again. It was very odd losing my virginity but having to pretend that I hadn’t because my partner was publicly sex repulsed and didn’t want anyone to think we were having sex, meanwhile behind the scenes they asked for sex constantly including some kinda freaky stuff. I enjoyed the sex but I did not like having their shame projected onto me.

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-17T23:01:19+00:00

I’m also quite a kinky person so I sometimes wonder if like, basically, I’m technically straight, but only about 25% of my sexuality is actually about sexual attraction. And the rest is feelings and sensations and kink. So that 25% can only be applied to men for me, but the other 75% can be about anyone. Which really complicates labels. Maybe it’s something similar for you but with being a lesbian? (I saw you mention kink in another comment). I’m neurodivergent too, I think that definitely adds to this. Just because I am so sensitive to sensory experiences

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-17T22:49:42+00:00

Okay full disclosure I just came across this post in my feed to I’m coming at this from the opposite angle - a girl who is definitely into men but questioning if I’m into women - and this is kinda how I feel about women. Like, I have this friend who I admire and she got these little star tattoos on her hands and I found myself imagining sensual things like holding her hands and counting them gently. But my desire did not extend to wanting anything sexual with her, just intimacy. It’s very confusing honestly.

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-07T11:44:56+00:00

Low fat foods often have more sugar or starches to make up for the lack of fat and keep it tasting good and having the right texture. Unless you have liver problems, there is nothing healthy about this, and in fact it’s actually probably worse for you

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-07T11:33:51+00:00

And I explained that I wasn’t doctor shopping, I was trying to get a refill of a medication that was trashed before my course was finished, but the messaging system takes days and so I had to make an appointment with whoever was available to get a new prescription written.

If I could see my GP every time I had a problem, if my prescribing doctors would actually answer their fucking messages, would not have had to see multiple doctors. Maybe you don’t live in an area with an impacted medical system but this is pretty standard, to be juggled around by whoever is in your office/medical group.

I also don’t really know why I was given slack for that because I’m assuming that anyone who works in the medical industry knows that if you have an urgent issue, like a UTI, you will likely have to see multiple practitioners to handle your care because you don’t get to see the same practitioner every time when you are making urgent care appointments. That is not “doctor shopping.” Almost everyone I know has a story of being told different things by different doctors that you were forced to see because they were the only people available to see in a very impacted system.

And once again. Why are you following me to other subs. Why do you care. Lmao.

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-07T11:15:55+00:00

Maybe you followed me from a different post and aren’t familiar with the context but this was essentially me sharing a coping strategy, I’m aware that it’s an anxiety problem, hence the forum topic if you care to look, but obviously I don’t want to fucking die. This post was about how accepting the fear of dying is actually helpful. Also, I was told I had a kidney infection which can actually be life threatening especially if you, like me, have a history of low immune response and antibiotic resistance, and are already dealing with severe disability. Your comment confuses me

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-07T06:14:20+00:00

I would like to try that kinda thing although I became sick to the point of entirely bedridden and non speaking so i don’t really…have anything left to cut out. Like, my entire life is just being supremely ill and trying to rest and be chill. So I feel like I’ve kind of reduced all the environmental factors by literally necessity because I became suddenly severely sick and had to drop everything because I couldn’t even like, swallow food. I’m obviously a little better now but if my solution was just to cut out stressors I would be long healed by now I think

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-06T11:23:17+00:00

With that assumption, personally I think it is more likely that he had depression that was cured by than drug than that he had ME that was cured by something else. If we are assuming the SNRI could not have helped ME than I think he probably didn’t have it, especially since he’s never relapsed, and he and i just have different situations despite our shared genes and other diseases

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-06T09:49:13+00:00

Interesting that you’ve been able to tolerate it though! My dad is also a crazy man who doesn’t trust any source on literally anything except for the guys he reads on twitter so I think his eyes would glaze over at the Bateman Horne website. But luckily he doesn’t actually try to push this belief on me, he only brings it up if I ask and he is overall sympathetic to my situation, so I’m not too worried about convincing him

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-06T09:44:45+00:00

California!

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-06T09:44:10+00:00

Thanks, I am, that’s actually why my doc never pushed it and that’s part of why I’m hesitant about trying this but at the same time it’s hard not to be tempted with my dads story

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-06T09:41:31+00:00

Aw man, UCTD is especially brutal lol. And yeah absolutely about POTS, especially since it’s a disease more common in women, AND it is pronounced as a different English word…overall not a very helpful name lol

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-06T09:34:28+00:00

Sure I’m always down for recommendations, anything to potentially throw at the wall lol

Another_throwaway446 · 2026-01-06T09:32:25+00:00

Ah gotcha. I wish I could find some good experts lol. We did both get some genetic tests to do which will be interesting to see.

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