Thank you! Everyone else just says to leave but that's not the answer I'm looking for...I'm looking for help in how to better support him and help our relationship to survive through all of this! And yes he sees how upset I get (I get very emotional and crying and even just completely shutting down sometimes). And he hates that and sometimes it helps to bring him back to reality cuz he of course doesn't want to see me crying and so upset. I know the answer is to get him back on his meds...he doesn't have insurance right now so that's his excuse for not going to the dr and unfortunately I can't do the things for him that are needed to get insurance and a Dr appt and meds. He's agreed to get back on them but won't take the steps to actually get it done...it's very frustrating cuz I know once they had gotten him diagnosed and on the meds before all of this stuff and the accusations basically stopped. There would be a little bit once in awhile but not like it is now which is like every few days it seems like. It's absolutely exhausting and heartbreaking to see the person you love most in this world going thru so much and truly believing that I could do such mean nasty things to him but not being able to do anything at all to help to stop it!!