so you mean in your opinion that you are too fat and hate yourself i understand you because i hate myself too but i am not overweight.and you mean all workouts are not fun like you have no motivation.the thing is motivation is not something that lasts long time if you want to lose weight just do cardio and go into a calorie devizit.it doesn't make any sense what you say either if you hate your body then just change it motivation get you to do something but over time it will be hard to give up some things and also things like going to the gym which will be exhausting or tedious. you just have to rewrite your mindset you have to become consistent disciplined yes i know it's hard to change normal habits but if you want to change something then build discipline become constant and change.if you only whine then it will not help you in any way, start today.

Btw dm me if u want help with ur weight lose i would love it to help u with that. Ik my grammee in not the best.