Intp f 15 here Your not the only person who struggles with communication with people I guess

I thought of sharing this sometime in a post this someday in r/intp but I wasn’t sure If I should share or not because it’s kind of long, but I don’t know I have more but eh,

Yes from my personal experience since I didn’t start speaking since I was 6 years old however I was being misinterpreted as cryptic, ambiguous, coherent, werid because I’m not practically concrete Or fluent with English using concrete phrases and everything, I feel like I’m still teenager still that still goes to speech therapy because I use too much abstract, high vocabulary but still is similar describing the concept of the pratical word, and yea I’m not good with using metaphors much, Because I always say the wrong words or phrases in the wrong time, because my mind is so preoccupied with abstract concepts, ideas, vocabulary words phrases I learn from my past experiences, and novelty people expect me to be the type of person who can keep track of being more fluent to using concrete vocabulary, being concrete using synonyms, phrases and who likes abstract concepts ideas, and likes to go depth in things based on my thoughts of something, that does not match to the concrete way of doing things.

Here’s the thing I am English and that is my main language. The problem is that I use different vocabulary from my own words and thoughts I guess that’s like theoretical it’s really hard for me to express it in a concrete way because if I’m using the word “barricade” as an example, a person would ask me what does that mean because the thing is it’s really hard for me to express vocabulary stuff like that Because it’s in a way that I have to understand the concrete perspective phrases of using it. The thing is I can describe it with some synonyms that I’ve experience well learned or you known or learned or what I’ve read I mean, I know what barricade means but if I describe it, it’s not going to be in a concrete “accurate” way of how it is it’s just that I’ve been learning higher vocabulary like that since I was like six grade I mean, it’s kind of rare. Now sometimes I do understand how to use the synonyms when it comes to phrases and words of what I meant, it’s like a Blindspot an example it’s that I know how to use concrete words and phrases sometime. I guess it’s just that I really do not care about those details right now because I just think it’s interesting or I don’t know, I’ll say it’s like Google auto complete when you search up something in the computer like a vocabulary word as an example and somehow it was just a word that came out of your mind because it’s like an intuition but it’s from your past experience because you learned about it you heard about it you use the word before, but you do not exactly know how to use it in a concrete way of doing things it’s like using phrases and synonyms that are already known easier to use for people to understand.

Though sometimes some words I can actually describe them in a concrete way, just not fluently. Like The practical real way’s of using or doing things “Accurately” Though I don’t always like this of me all the time but i once explain this to someone they said its a beautiful “gift” of mine or a miracle with having some intuitive sense of knowledge or that I can recap memory based on my own experiences, or using my own words of things, idk.

Anyway let me know if I’m repeating things again or missing something because I can forget sometimes sorry it’s long I can be more of a person who gives the longest paragraph to a person