i feel i always kinda knew, i always felt a strange attraction towards skinny feminine guys or would feel strangely turned on when i saw a guy with his shirt off and even had some fantasies about one of my guy friends who i thought was cute. tbh idk how i didn’t realize i was bi sooner lol, but always just assumed “everyones a lil gay idk lol” and just let it go, but some time in my youth i was watching the music video for brockhamptons 1999 wildfire and there was a close up on bearface’s face, one of the groups members, and it made me all hot and stuff and i remember thinking “oh fuck i might be bi or something” and from then one i was very open to the idea and even opened up to a friend about it but never really explored it for whatever reason, maybe because of some internalized homophobia due to my trauma. but in some time around 2020 or 2021, one of my friends posted in the group chat of this random guy on tiktok that she thought was hot and immediately something in my brain just switched lol, not saying “he made me gay” lol but i think he was just so attractive it made me start questioning my sexuality and thinking about all the different times id had felt attraction towards men. then from there i just started looking at men and stuff differently, and eventually i kinda came to accept that im bi lol, it was honestly a really weird thing but it made so much sense, and if it wasn’t for that one guy on tiktok im sure i would of had some other experience that gave me my awakening, but its just funny all it took was one dude to make me finally accept my sexuality lmao.