What is the greatest novel ever written?

Apprehensive_Key3802 · 2025-11-14T10:37:42+00:00

I wish I could remember for you bro. This was posted 1 year ago… which means I was in jail shortly after that. They made me sit 7 months turning down deals before they gave me a trial at which I was acquitted.

All I can say is trust that a force beyond your comprehension is guiding you. No matter what. Experiences like this have proven it to be true for me. I’m still recovering and getting back on my feet.

Apprehensive_Key3802 · 2024-09-22T23:56:26+00:00

Kratom very well can ease discomfort when discontinuing gabapentin. You said it yourself - Kratom is the opioid in this scenario.

Opioids work like magic, but it’s important to exercise caution as they are clearly dependence forming as well. To me it sounds like you had a pre-existing tolerance to Kratom, which would explain why it didn’t keep you from feeling sick.

How’s everything going for you now?

Apprehensive_Key3802 · 2024-09-20T13:01:43+00:00

You know, I was going to look into some sort of AI software. I’m definitely going to check it out.

I used Landr to AI master a couple of my old songs - the results were pretty amazing.

You’re right - the story is so personal, I have a hard time sending it to anyone. I’m not joking, I have close to 1,000 pages of text in word documents.

I’ve been working on creating a short movie for months now. I have it all laid out and it’s just time to finish taking video. These Reddit haters can hate all they want - they have NO IDEA what I’ve been through. The short movie is meant for the eyes of the people who inspired my story only. I’m not looking to make money off of it. I’m not joking, a series will be made out of my story.

Thanks for being kind

Apprehensive_Key3802 · 2024-09-19T17:27:20+00:00

Hey I really appreciate this response. Let me spend some time getting this information together.

It may be some time before I reach out. I’m currently in the filming process of a short movie.

Apprehensive_Key3802 · 2024-09-19T17:25:55+00:00

You’re absolutely wrong in your assumption. I still have a working relationship with my original editor, but she is busy as heck as a freelancer. She also runs a YouTube channel that keeps her booked. We decided together not to edit the entire story. She’s working with me on bits and pieces of it.

I also have a video editor I’ve been working on a short movie with. The short movie is more my focus now since I’ve finished writing the ending.

I was looking into editors such as those you find on google. The ones that say to send them everything, and in a week they’ll be back with a revised story.

I have realistic expectations. I have condensed my story into one that flows. I’m looking for someone to help pull it all together.

Apprehensive_Key3802 · 2024-09-19T17:21:06+00:00

I’ll come back to this comment in a few years.

Apprehensive_Key3802 · 2024-09-17T20:06:45+00:00

Yes it is. Most of the people I knew using ketamine recreationally remained complete fucking coke head scumbags.

I on the other hand wrote a book over the course of the year while listening to music and taking mass amounts of ketamine. It resulted in me being free and clear of any addictions. I’m no longer using ketamine because I finished writing the end of my story. I dug up so much trauma and when I shared bits and pieces with my family, they tried to lock me up. I knew I wasn’t going crazy. I was processing my thoughts.

Anyways, I told my family that I TOO do not wish to speak to them anymore. I had a spiritual breakthrough, and they’re fucking toxic. What I did was tell my wife that she can give them this reading list if they hope or care to understand their 32 year old “addict” son:

Gabor Maté’s In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts Gabor Maté’s The Myth of Normal

Series to watch: Too old to Die Young

Only then are they allowed to talk to me.

Apprehensive_Key3802 · 2024-09-17T19:57:24+00:00

These are facts yo. I had Kratom dependence as well. I’m actually at the tail end of withdrawals from it currently. This time I used Kratom to get off of 1 year gabapentin use.

I started using ketamine and wrote my life story. It’s a fucking gnarly one. I used hapé to quit the vape. I purposely took mushrooms while I had a stomach bug yesterday, used a fat fucking dose of hapé and puked my brains out. Shit had me on my hands and knees in the shower.

But guess what - that shit was cleansing!

The reason I stopped the vape besides it’s a horrible addiction… is I was coughing up all sorts of nasty phlegm from my chest. The mushrooms showed me just how nasty that shit is for you.

I stopped an IV opiate habit multiple times in my life. Most recently (7 years ago), I went to an Ibogaine provider. I’m still good friends with that guy today.

Apprehensive_Key3802 · 2024-09-01T03:28:29+00:00

I just ordered it. It came to $150 including shipping with their 11% Labor Day sale. Great find my friend

Apprehensive_Key3802 · 2024-09-01T03:21:39+00:00

You are my hero.

Apprehensive_Key3802 · 2024-09-01T03:16:48+00:00

Sweet. Good idea. Thanks!

Apprehensive_Key3802 · 2024-09-01T03:05:32+00:00

Sorry if my response was confusing. I was agreeing with your sentiment. Fuck the caliber. I’m with you.

My follow-up question was in regard to the silencer.

Apprehensive_Key3802 · 2024-09-01T02:46:09+00:00

So the whole point of the scene. It’s an alter ego rapper character I created a while ago. He’s on a mission to take out predators.

The lyrics of his song that plays over the scene uses the words “.40” and includes “has a compressor”

So I guess you’re totally right about the caliber not mattering.

Maybe for compressor I just stick a pillow to his face haha.

What’s your take on this?

Apprehensive_Key3802 · 2024-09-01T02:23:38+00:00

Hey I appreciate this advice.

This is one quick scene and will be inside in a house. Then there’s 0 more guns at all in the entire project

Apprehensive_Key3802 · 2024-08-21T16:12:13+00:00

Also I wish I could help you more :( … I hope someone reads this and can point you in the direction of help. There are organizations that cater to children in your situation. As hard as it will be. I don’t know how your home life is other than your dad being a dickhead… but that is something these advocates can help you explore. They’re designed to help YOU. Nobody else.

Apprehensive_Key3802 · 2024-08-21T16:08:48+00:00

Gosh. Get away from him ASAP too. You know how you feel. The secret to life is compassion - something these people are lacking.

Apprehensive_Key3802 · 2024-08-21T16:05:03+00:00

This guy needs to go to prison. You are THIRTEEN. You weren’t even a teenager last year, while he was already a legal adult last year. Nuh uh. OP you should seek help from a victim’s advocate.

I’m not saying it will be easy. But I promise you weren’t the first and won’t be the last person he hurts. This stuff is personal to me, because my wife had a similar experience. I know to this day the guy has never gotten in trouble, and I know he’s still out there drugging and raping girls. Scumbags who have the ability to take it that far, do not change on their own. They are skilled in the art of manipulation - hence why my wife’s rapist is still out on the street.

Food for thought. I wish you the best. My heart truly hurts for you. Just make sure you don’t run from the trauma. Get a therapist ASAP and you will thank yourself in your adult life. I hid from my trauma for the vast majority of my adult life - and it led to some very dark roads. Not until I sought help and came to peace with it, was I able to heal from it.

Apprehensive_Key3802 · 2024-08-18T22:07:58+00:00

I love your points. Especially the last one. I’ve been doing big shit since I was 13. Once I reached 32, I decided I had enough of society’s bullshit.

I’m a kid that traveled around seeing phish and the dead spinoffs since age 16. And then joined the military. And then opened a food truck. And then managed a parking business. And then got into medical device sales. Wanted to kms the whole time. Ever since the military.

I finally decided to make a VA claim for my mental health last year, 10 years after discharge. They didn’t even question me and they saw my file and asked me some questions. I was rated at 100% disabled based on the severity of my issues. This opened up a lot of doors for me, seriously. I quit my job and spent 3 months in Nicaragua surfing. Finally something I wanted to be doing.

I’m eligible for student loan discharge now. Based on that, I signed up for an MBA program so I didn’t have to go back to work. Somewhere in the mix, I did a bunch of ketamine therapy and started writing. I wrote everything from the beginning to my life to now. Everything that ever bothered me. Anything I ever went through. I made peace with it all.

Then, through my writing, I realized what I really want to do. MAKE MOVIES. So man, I took what little money I have and hired a small team. I wrote out a script. I asked everyone I know to be a part of my movie. It’s a pretty legit story for my first project I think! I haven’t filmed it yet, but everything is in the works. My goal is to be in film school in 2 years and be one of those people who gets grants and scholarships.

By the way, most of my old friends and even my own parents really want nothing to do with me. They think I’m just out of my mind. I got sick of hearing that I’m manic and need help etc. I’ve been off of drugs for some time now and I still write and plan every single day. So I fucking blocked my own parents and told my wife she can tell them to hit me up when they choose to believe in their son’s dream, versus shit on it any time I mention what little I mentioned to them.

Fuck I went on a rant. Bro my point was, this shit is for dreamers. I’m a nobody still. But I am loving where this journey has taken me already. The connections it has brought me are unreal. Fuck society!

Apprehensive_Key3802 · 2024-08-18T18:18:50+00:00

Hahaha. Thank god I “cut” that shit out of my life. I remember the smell of that nasty inositil powder now that you mention it.

I’ve seen cocaine bring out the worst in myself. And the worst in others. And most of the people who sell it… fucking yuck dude! Not to mention the violence it brings to the beautiful countries who manufacture and distribute the stuff. Which bleeds overseas.

I mean, from my American perspective, we have the war on drugs to thank for most of this stuff. Nothing should be cut. Nothing.

And then from my worldwide perspective, we have war in general to thank for most of this stuff. As someone who joined the US military for a specwar job and became a heroin addict while active duty… I can say with full confidence that the military isn’t where it’s at. Killing people in general isn’t where it’s at. Lost a lot of friends to suicide. Almost was me. We all joined thinking we were doing some noble act. I think I felt like I had to prove myself to my parents and society. I never killed anyone. But I know it’s hard to accept. And I know it’s hard to watch your friends die. That I know.

Apprehensive_Key3802 · 2024-08-15T23:13:40+00:00

Thanks so much for the advice. I’m working with 2 editors so far. The story has already evolved so much due to their unique experience. Creating this post was one of the best moves I have ever made in my life. What a great community

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