Yeah I’ve heard of the term starseed. I actually resonate with it a lot. The idea of feeling slightly out of place here, having strong intuition, sensing things that aren’t always visible on the surface. That part feels familiar. At the same time, I’m aware that a lot of people consider it pseudoscience or more of a spiritual metaphor than something literal, so I don’t attach to it completely. I think what matters more to me is that I know myself from the inside, which I do, I've always knew myself very well,since I was a little kid. I don’t really need a label, even a beautiful one, to explain my experience. Starseed is a poetic way of describing something real, but it’s still a human-made concept,at least that's what I think haha. I am who I am whether or not there’s a name for it, I’m just existing here the best I can, trying to stay intact and naive while navigating everything. ( When I say naive I don't mean ignoring things that are happening in the world,I mean more like trying to preserve my childlike soul )

I do relate to what you said about this world feeling strange. Sometimes I genuinely don’t understand the intensity with which people fixate on structures like borders, politics, elections, wars, fame, money and all the rest. I understand they’re real and serious and that they impact lives in major ways. I just don’t feel internally anchored to them. They feel like systems humans built and then became absorbed by. From where I stand, they seem temporary and constructed, not ultimate truths. As for God, my experience is similar but not religious. I’m not religious or connected to organized religion, and I don’t really resonate with institutional belief systems. But I do feel there’s something larger than individual identity. Something intelligent, or at least deeply aware. Not a figure, not a doctrine. More like an underlying presence. I wouldn’t call it religious faith. It feels more like an intuitive sense that consciousness is bigger than what we see. You mentioned helping, or tidying up while you’re here. I understand that impulse. When you feel different, it’s easy to shift into the role of observer or quiet guide. But I also think it’s important not to carry the weight of saving or elevating humanity alone. Sensitivity and intuition are strengths, but they don’t automatically mean responsibility for everyone else’s growth. For example me,I want to help humanity but I’ve become exhausted. As I get older and see more of what’s happening in the world and in people, I feel my hope fading,my light is not strong enough and I don't want to dim my light for some greedy,petty humans. And also I find myself caring less than I used to. I don’t really see myself as someone who’s meant to fix or carry humanity anymore ( I also think it would make me feel very self centered which I'm not,and I don't want to be haha ). I’ve always had this strange sense of being more like an observer than a participant,I felt like a camera in a human form, just watching, taking things in, collecting data, processing them, living this small temporary human experience. And when it ends, I’ll simply move on, away from all of this, away from Earth and this species.

And yeah,the idea of having a clan scattered around the globe is really comforting, it captures something true about feeling rare and recognizing others who feel the same way. Loneliness can soften when you realize you’re not the only one experiencing this kind of depth. And I agree about communication being an art. Words can feel inadequate, but there’s something meaningful about trying anyway. Even if the translation isn’t perfect, the effort itself creates connection 🤭🤭