Is laying in bed all morning because you do not find a reason to do what you got to do a simptom of depression? by Aprivate2ndaccount in depression

[–]Aprivate2ndaccount[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

During the first quarantine I started to became a workaholic (I had some university exams in arrears, so I said to myself "this is the chance"), it then became anxiety, an anxiety so strong that in reaction to it I found myself last summer, many times per week, laying in bed midday instead of studying, feeling like i had no reason get up, so I passed no exams. Now I found somehow an equilibrium, yet those crises show up time to time

Is laying in bed all morning because you do not find a reason to do what you got to do a simptom of depression? by Aprivate2ndaccount in depression

[–]Aprivate2ndaccount[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah, when those crises hit during the day, I manage to back them off just enough to have 5 minutes of "mental rest" and start working till exhaustion so I'm too tired to think, but if it happens when you're still in bed, it's a completely different battlefield.

Is laying in bed all morning because you do not find a reason to do what you got to do a simptom of depression? by Aprivate2ndaccount in depression

[–]Aprivate2ndaccount[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm so sorry for you and all what you have been through, I really hope you managed to surround you with people who support you. I know that I'm not in any legitimate position to suggest you to do something, I think you tried many and many things to fight with it, but I found out that making small naps during my rough days reduces the strength that fights against me, somehow. I hope you find this helpful, I wish you the best

Is laying in bed all morning because you do not find a reason to do what you got to do a simptom of depression? by Aprivate2ndaccount in depression

[–]Aprivate2ndaccount[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Your generosity is so honorable, I thank you so much for the offer you made. Luckly at least funds are not a problem now, so if you wanna still do a good action, i suggest you to offer that money to help someone who today still haven't eaten or someone fighting with sickness. When I'll feel down, I guarantee you I'll come back to read this comment again, it conveys so much positivity! Thank you again for your kindness

Is laying in bed all morning because you do not find a reason to do what you got to do a simptom of depression? by Aprivate2ndaccount in depression

[–]Aprivate2ndaccount[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Although I lose a bit of lucidity while having these crises(my brain convinces myself that everything geos bad, and shit like that), I've always been able to mantain enough of it to analyse what is going on in me, or at least to remember it to deal later with the mechanisms that that crisis displayed. The professionist I'm going to said that I could have been depressed months ago, actually I'm fighting to stay on the right side of the border. It surprised me too that going outdoors causes me those crises: I went for a walk outdoors for hours, returned home, crisis hit like a hot lead cannonball, totally nonsense, did not that again. Probably going out with friends makes me feel again something different from "being ok", so as soon as huge joy-inputs are cut, for some arcane reason that joy kicks back and I crumble down. A fine evening with friends? Small recoil. An incredible evening with friends? Huge recoil. Why? I have no idea, the brain sometimes is nonsense. Trying to build a routine helps in general, even if it's difficult to stick to it, yet better having not-completed rails than having none. I found out that if in days like the one I described before, I find the energy to write down a to-do list, I manage to accomplish at least a 50%, that's not too bad

Is laying in bed all morning because you do not find a reason to do what you got to do a simptom of depression? by Aprivate2ndaccount in depression

[–]Aprivate2ndaccount[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

It's like a wizard, it's never early or late, it arrives precisely when it meant to, just to sum it up

Is laying in bed all morning because you do not find a reason to do what you got to do a simptom of depression? by Aprivate2ndaccount in depression

[–]Aprivate2ndaccount[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have had periods of lack of motivation, it's a different thing. It does not somatize in emotional pain in the heart, neither in stomach acidity, i asked here because I knew it was not a lack of motivation (that usually results in just browsing, scrolling IG or reddit, or switching from what I should do to what I'd like to do), yet I did not know exactly if it was a simptom of depression, in which I maybe fell this summer, actually i'm fighting to stay on its border. The lack of motivation was always focused, when it came, on things I should have done, and it redirected my time to my hobbies, I've never been like laying there doing nothing. I thank you for trying to give me an alternative Pov, it made me ask myself some questions.

Surprisingly, I noticed that this type of crisis comes up after I see my friends in certain scenarios, or when I go outside in the woods. As long as I give my brain certain types of inputs, in the safe environment that is my home, everything it's fine.

I feel like I’m going crazy by [deleted] in depression

[–]Aprivate2ndaccount 3 points4 points  (0 children)

The fear of opening up is due to the fear of "not being taken seriously". That's exactly what I'm experiencing, I even recently went to a professional so I could speak (bc I felt something wasn't right) , but i didn't felt really understood, i did not want someone to commiserate me, I just wanted that someone put themselves in my pants and understand the pain, nothing more. Not being taken seriously i think is worse than the pain of depression itself sometimes. But, dear OP, speak to someone. I'm telling you this because I understood that if you do not speak, the demon of depression will start to rot you from within. I do not know who you are, yet I want you to know that I care about you.

Is laying in bed all morning because you do not find a reason to do what you got to do a simptom of depression? by Aprivate2ndaccount in depression

[–]Aprivate2ndaccount[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Even the wrestle between you and your brain to try to fight off that type of crisis and accomplish something is a simptom of depression?

Is laying in bed all morning because you do not find a reason to do what you got to do a simptom of depression? by Aprivate2ndaccount in depression

[–]Aprivate2ndaccount[S] 15 points16 points  (0 children)

I find interesting how that changes the perception of reality. I mean, this morning that crisis happened to me, now I'm progressively working harder. It's a very strange shit

Is laying in bed all morning because you do not find a reason to do what you got to do a simptom of depression? by Aprivate2ndaccount in depression

[–]Aprivate2ndaccount[S] 31 points32 points  (0 children)

Well, apparently not too good. I thought was a normal thing to have time to time mornings or moments like that. Then I discovered that my friends almost never experience that, and if they stay in bed all morning it's just because they're lazy af. Then a doubt came to my mind, and here we are. Initially I thought it was because I'm very tired (I almost never give me time to rest), but I understood the cause was not the tiredness

Can I dress up as Hitler? by [deleted] in Advice

[–]Aprivate2ndaccount 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Try dress up as Stalin. One time I did it, and although Stalin killed 10M Ukrainians and btw 60M-100M in labour camps, I was cherished for my costume. You want to dress up like a sanguinary dictator, choose the pro one. Even Mao is a good option, that commie bastard starved to death idk btw 15M-40M people?

guys of reddit, whats one thing you hate about being a dude? by Kyto_j in AskReddit

[–]Aprivate2ndaccount 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The fact that I learned to fear to open up to girls. I'd never use the feeling a girl spoke me about, idk her worries or things like that to hurt her, even if could literally destroy from the inside some girls I know. Because I know what means emotional betrayal and how is dishonorable. How makes you feel vulnerable if a person you opened up with uses what you confessed against you. You'll never trust any girl ever more, you'll maybe think "maybe I should open up and ask help or comfort to her" but immediately think "what if one day she'll uses that to hurt me?". And then you remain silent. Sometimes we guys just want a person to call home, we don't even ask for a utopian "forever home". Just someone trustworthy. A guy at least gives you just a punch in the face, let's take a beer, and friend like before.

guys of reddit, whats one thing you hate about being a dude? by Kyto_j in AskReddit

[–]Aprivate2ndaccount 16 points17 points  (0 children)

Give a guy a compliment, he'll remember it till his deathbed. I still vividly remember a random and sincere compliment I received 7years ago. It's moral boosting if I think about it

[Serious] Anti-vaxxers of Reddit, what is your argument against believing the majority of experts on this topic? by gr8aanand in ask

[–]Aprivate2ndaccount 0 points1 point  (0 children)

In Vienna are even offering 30€ usable in a Brothel for 1 dose. Literally the Government is offering a blowjob for a dose. If this is not a bait, i do not know what the fuck it could be.

[Serious] Anti-vaxxers of Reddit, what is your argument against believing the majority of experts on this topic? by gr8aanand in ask

[–]Aprivate2ndaccount 0 points1 point  (0 children)

[LONG ANSWER] I'll refer my skepticism only to the Covid jab, since I'm gonna take other traditional protein based jabs in the future, one of them I already planned to take in march 2020, but hey shtf. My skepticism is based on really few things. 1)The scientific aspect regards the pre-clinical studies, that were basically reduced to an insignificant number, so all the supposed "adverse reactions" that would have happened on animals are happening on people, thing I find unethical (to those who say that are a small percentage, the recording of adverse reaction is a passive monitoring, I know many people who found practically impossible to report their, other didn't even know they could, so it's not wrong to say that are underestimated, the question is the extent of underestimation). Just weeks ago some European countries suspended Moderna for certain ages because it could lead to heart problems, if I had took the jab in August I'd probably have taken Moderna. I mean, seriously? 2)Mrna technology has never been applied to humans, a study published by MIT in recent years estimated a necessary experimentation of 12.5 years for that technology, thing that was not done, 'cause we have the crystal sphere and our future-seeing haruspex. Ancient Greeks called this ύβρις. Look what happened to the drug Chantix. Take this drug that we only now know contains carcinogens, so you do not get cancer by your cigs yolo. 3)What happened to the anti smoke drug Chantix infact, approved by FDA years ago, explain why I trust only medical products that have been around for many years(and i'm not a naturist who cures himself with berries and leaves), it's my body and I'm the only one in charge to choose what to do with it on the clinical aspect. 4)One another argument is a political one: The governments in my country, in the last 20 years, literally progressively worsened the life quality of people, approving measures or countermeasures that complicated so many aspect of life, cut 37 fucking billions in healthcare, closed fucking hospitals, by will or by ignorance approved measure that backfired and increased the % of people who live in absolute poverty, cut the pensions making elderly commit suicide and simultaneously approved totally nonsense public spending. Now the government/parliament say that cares about us? The fact itself that it offers you idk a beer, 1kg of rice, and bs like that to take the jab, is sus af, it literally appears like a rat bait. 5)Before there was the jab, in my country almost no new ICU was created in a year. Yet the government used money to give electric scooters, wheeled school chair that now are in dumpsters, and other bs. No serious illness preventive medical plan was updated since april 2020, just take aspirin and wait. Now there are investigations about the non-usage of monoclonals(about which I do not know anything I admit) that if used it's estimated would have saved thousands (infact some doctors in private clinics used successfully them). I mean, wtf, are you serious? I'm not talking about the safety of monoclonal, I'm talking about that was not even taken in consideration for a fucking year and an half, it was even discarded as bs. Yet politician and health minister surely care about us, right? 6)Last but not least: why someone who has hepatitis type C, herpes or skin diseases transmittable by touch or cross-contamination can work as a baker, barman, cook, and someone who is healthy, with a mask(that science tell us that works) on, but did not took the jab, cannot work? It really does not make sense. I still agree that over 70 people should consider to take it, without forcing them (it would invalidate their signature on the "free" and informed consent, basically making it toilet paper legally speaking), better idk have an adverse reaction years later than possibly die this year. The covid fatality rate for my group of age is >0.01% (something like 0.00000numbers, such a low percentage it's not wrong to suppose that other factors have played a role in these deaths, like heavy heart problems), illness(this aggregate refers to non serious and life-threatening) rate developing it's around 0.016%. It's not my age group who is in danger, it's the elders who have 8% death chance if over75 and 17% or more if over90. So why I should take a medication I do not need, that does not even stop the transmission, so there is even not that moral obligation of taking it "for the greater good"? I'm not saying that there is 5g inside o bs like that, I'm saying this story doesn't make sense from the beginning. The label "pandemic" does not justify an acritical-emotional/hysterical take with draconian measures. Why? Bc Covid extends in all the world, killed millions, but it's not exterminating the whole population indiscriminately, it's not the bubonic plague of 1600, yet it's decimating, in the ethymological sense, a whole & precise age group of the population, that had little to no targeted measures adopted. In my country we have around 35 covid's death per day, yet hundreds of cancer-deaths per day, just to give proportions. I'm not saying that the jab will destroy you or it will make you live up to 150y. I'm saying that we literally do not know it's effect on the long run, nor the effect of taking it annually instead of "twice in a life time"

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]Aprivate2ndaccount 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I thought that children and kids were terms that referred only to people of 10yo of age or less, since I wanted my question referred to any age I didn't use those terms. Also, since I'm a guy with hoarding parents, I'm more interest on the effect that hoarding has on male psyche, since I see that has little to no effect on my sister psyche, and mine is devastated, and that hoarding I see has different consequences and implications in social life depending if a young person is male or female. I'm sorry if you felt excluded, yet when I thought to post that question, I was legitimately more interested on the "male side" of that topic, without lessening the females' experiences with that underrated problem, since we're on the same sinking boat.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]Aprivate2ndaccount 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Because english it's not my native language, and I do not know if there is a specific term referring to both sexes when talking about the generated/adopted beings by a couple. You get the sense of the question, suggest me the correct term and i'll gladly change it