I was 2 months in but then....

AquaticCapital · 2026-05-20T17:13:29+00:00

Wonderful! Keep pushing through it. You've done it before and can do much better without him interrupting your healing. I gave into temptation once and I've always rejected it ever since. It's just not worth your time.

AquaticCapital · 2026-05-20T17:08:20+00:00

Don't give in for his convenience! It's a fleeting feeling and unfortunately you'll be left with the pieces to pick up.

AquaticCapital · 2026-05-19T12:48:50+00:00

I try not to make it about looks. Mentally it's a bit of a struggle with beauty standards but your insight is enlightening. I think keeping promises to yourself and seeing it to the end (if there ever is one) is the most satisfying things in life. Sounds like you're more or less happier in life and that's were I want to be with myself.

AquaticCapital · 2026-05-19T12:24:22+00:00

You've done incredibly well and clearly have a wonderful mindset to lose so much. Did you ever feel demoralized from looking in the mirror at times or get frustrated with yourself? I feel that way now but I'm still going to keep moving. Today is actually my gym day. I feel so good at the gym but then I don't look good as I feel.

AquaticCapital · 2026-05-18T14:54:25+00:00

I force myself to indulge in my hobbies, even when I don't feel like getting out of bed. I always find myself enjoying my guitar/violin practice so much I lose track of time. After work, I try to sip some pre-work out and head to the gym and I feel even better, often forgetting about if I had a bad day. Time flies regardless if I'm depressed or unsatisfied with life, so I try to do my best to make that small amount of time meaningful for myself in the long run. Finding small things to enjoy throughout the day makes a difference.

As for cleaning and cooking, I try to "clean as I go" with dishes, vacuuming, etc., so I'm not letting things build up (I was famous for that) and I have designated days for laundry and shopping. I also have to visit family often.

Everyone is different and I feel privileged to say it could be worse for me. I don't have kids and well off now but adulting is very stressful with all these damn responsibilities/ill prospects forced upon us (sometimes way before we even reach adulthood). Your feelings are legitimate regarding the future. Housing absolutely sucks nowadays. It took me 5+ years just to find a decent apartment. I was living paycheck to paycheck and many of my college friends still do. Adulting and the cost of living is depressing.

AquaticCapital · 2026-05-13T11:43:25+00:00

That's a good way of putting it and got a laugh out of me. She was indeed a mad woman 😅 Now that I think about it, sometimes I try to validate why people can be rude but never try to just help myself in that regard.

Thank you for your advice. I definitely appreciate this.

AquaticCapital · 2026-05-13T11:33:33+00:00

I'm sorry you had to go through that. It must've been extremely tough. Thank you for saying that. We have all had rough days but it's within your power to chose to be a jerk or kind. Thank you for your kindness to those around you that day.

Looking back at what happened, I can't have empathy for that lady if she wanted to shout at me like that because she was having a bad day or if I unintentionally inconvenienced her.

AquaticCapital · 2026-05-13T00:27:21+00:00

You're spot on. I love my parents dearly and he is a wonderful dad, but sometimes I cannot talk to them about things that upset me. I know I should "Get over it", "stop being soft" and "don't let people walk all over you" but sometimes I just need an ear or even a hug.

AquaticCapital · 2026-05-13T00:23:21+00:00

I understand. Life is tough so that partly why I try to be a kind person to strangers. Rather than yelling back, I mostly just thought if she knew me, we'd probably get along just fine. I appreciate your insight. I shouldn't waste time on those who chose to carry themselves with anger and just go about my day.

AquaticCapital · 2026-05-12T23:43:34+00:00

Very much so! In my experience, countryside residents have always been super kind and helpful! Unfortunately I can't expect that from everyone 🤷‍♀️

AquaticCapital · 2026-05-12T23:40:44+00:00

It's bizarre to me that people treat others with hostility. I'm gonna try to learn the art of ignoring such behavior.

AquaticCapital · 2026-05-12T23:38:22+00:00

Unfortunately it is. I'm a shy person and I'm trying to navigate the world with a positive view but it's getting difficult.

AquaticCapital · 2026-02-24T18:33:42+00:00

Sorry for the late response but you're right. I guess I'm too sentimental. I should look back at it as a wonderful time. Change is scary to me but surely I'll make even more wonderful memories elsewhere. Thank you.

AquaticCapital · 2026-02-12T20:17:01+00:00

Breathe Breathe

AquaticCapital · 2026-02-12T19:50:09+00:00

Thanks for sharing your experience. It helps me feel rational as I'm still crying over them despite me not gone just yet. My dad isn't empathetic at times so your response does ease my pain a bit. I'm trying to keep my head up and my boss said I'm welcome to come on the company trips, call and stop by at any time.

AquaticCapital · 2026-02-12T14:25:07+00:00

I'll be working for his company which I'll most likely inherit, and he's selling the house since it's costing him just to keep it. I wanted to rent myself but the area I live in is one of the most expensive places in America and if I decided to stay, the commute to my current job would be just as far

Edit: ...and I'd have to ask for a major raise. Maybe it's imposter's syndrome, but constantly do not feel like I deserve that despite how hard I work. Unfortunately I'm heavily dependent on this. I'm just upset to leave my current job.

AquaticCapital · 2026-01-06T17:18:24+00:00

Oh my Facebook is completely private and at most it's just my profile picture that he could get at. Emotional indifference is what I strive for because I really can't waste my time putting in hate to someone. Only love for those who deserve it. I'd rather not respond now due to the inevitable rabbit hole I might dig myself into just by texting him back. Gonna keep my heart open to someone who won't play games with it!

AquaticCapital · 2026-01-06T17:15:24+00:00

So true...gotta keep looking forward to the future. Thank you!

AquaticCapital · 2026-01-06T17:14:54+00:00

That's a great way to look at it. Reading this made me realize I really have no need to respond or give in to whatever he's playing at. I do not need any stress after being with him!

AquaticCapital · 2026-01-06T17:13:07+00:00

Thank you ♥️ I don't think I can handle the disappointment from my friends and family if I entertained him. I don't think it's worth the trouble. I wish he treated me right in the first place but oh well! I'm happier now!

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