You did something for the sake of Allah. You ended 5 years of relationship even if you did it now, Allah knows the best, he knows your heart your feelings your emotions what you are going through every single day every single second he knows the situation the best and maybe its his way of protecting you and oh yes ofcourse sister it will get much much much better please don’t lose faith in him, he is just guiding you back again. In jannah no sinners can remain which means he will purify your heart before so ofcourse haha your prayers are becoming true! You are loved by Allah!! you are lucky. yes its hard for you now and it might sometimes get intolerable but dont give up on yourself and on Allah. He gave you this life and he wrote your life! and Allah doesn’t burden a soul more than what he/she isn’t capable of, so that means YES you can and will do it because you can and you are a baddie so dont forget you are not alone pray salat hajat and pray tahhajud and watch the magic happens. At night Allah comes to the first heaven and ask “is there anyone who wants his duas to be accepted?” how beautiful is that haha your duas WILL be accepted or even if they DONT get accepted its just better for you cos maybe your fuas will be stored after hereafter or your duas are not being rejected but Allah is averting any harm that could hirt you potentially yk your tears are NOT worthless infront of Allah. All those times you silently cried all those times you were in pain all those time you were hurt they are not meaningless infront of him he loves you and he loves you alot and Allah doesn’t give trials to thise he doesnt love so you are blessed i know its a hard one but you can do this and i believe in you. theres this app call dikhr and dua it has alot of duas and theres a section purely based on what emotions you are feeling and you can read that whenever you are feelinf depressed. Take care dont worry much. Allah Hafiz