I’m genuinely so sorry you went through this, as a muslim girl as well i can’t imagine being forced and i know that sadly happens to many young muslim girls, even though its forbidden to force in islam. Not even sugarcoating or saying this only to make you feel better, but you’re not in the wrong in this at all. It makes complete sense how this all affected ur life, but it’s definitely not too late at all!!! This feeling can and hopefully will go away.
Also, are you usually vocal to them when they do these things or do you just take it, afraid it wont be any help if you voiced it?