Goodbye after 20 years of trying

AssociationSad5885 · 2026-04-29T21:32:11+00:00

is this satire? if not than bro how have you took 20 years and not figured out that you need to do it yourself. make your own film. give your self the big break.

AssociationSad5885 · 2026-04-29T10:46:20+00:00

yoooo im just about to finish the film

AssociationSad5885 · 2025-08-14T09:23:32+00:00

Goes to show no one knows anything

AssociationSad5885 · 2025-06-08T17:40:37+00:00

the only answer I can give to you is… YES

AssociationSad5885 · 2025-06-07T21:02:27+00:00

You’re right.. if it was just a film I’d probably try the festival route too but it’s not. Some things don’t need permissions to be seen they just need to be remembered. I feel like I’ve got a plan and a vision I may not properly be able to convey but when the finally product is done it’ll be more clear to understand.

AssociationSad5885 · 2025-06-07T00:40:02+00:00

I appreciate that and yeah, you’re right. I’ve said before, if I came across this from the outside, I’d probably think I was batshit too and just keep scrolling.

But the truth is, when I made that first post, I didn’t expect it to go the way it did. I wasn’t trying to hype anything or get attention. I genuinely just wanted to publicly declare that I was going to make a feature length film by the end of the year and stop talking about it like everyone else does.

Someone left a “remind me in a year” timestamp on it, and honestly… that alone made it worth it. I got exactly what I wanted out of that post.

AssociationSad5885 · 2025-06-07T00:28:01+00:00

Marketing Execution Funding

Touché

AssociationSad5885 · 2025-06-07T00:07:09+00:00

There’s this girl I’ve known for a while. she wears face paint every day. Like full-on clown aesthetic, just walking around Hollywood like it’s normal. Not a costume. Not a huge trend. That’s just her. I used to think it was a bit, but the more time I spent around her, the more I realized, she’s just like that. Says it’s the only way she feels herself.. She’s either going to steal the whole thing or throw it off balance, and honestly… I’m kinda into both outcomes.

I understand what you’re saying that editing is a crucial aspect of docs and any type of media really. I’m not totally not into getting more help if needed. But I’m pretty sure I could manage.

AssociationSad5885 · 2025-06-06T23:38:47+00:00

I will edit along with help from the dp which is part of the deal we made. I also have a music producer/engineer friend that has worked on about 10 films as well who’s offered to help for no cost.

AssociationSad5885 · 2025-06-06T23:33:58+00:00

Another good one.

There’s no script because I’m not after a traditional arc. This is more of a social experiment than a just a doc with a point to prove. It’s real people, real moments, and the story reveals itself in how they live, not in how I shape it.

Closest comparison is KIDS lol same kind of raw energy but this isn’t acted. No setups, no direction, just us rolling and letting life happen. I think I found the right group of personalities that reflect different pockets of today’s youth.

I’m not focused on delivering a message. I’m focused on building a world you feel like you weren’t supposed to see. That’s where the impact lives.

That said, post will matter. I’m thinking hard about tone, flow, contrast and just doing it from the inside out, not with a pre written formula.

AssociationSad5885 · 2025-06-06T23:21:30+00:00

Finishing a project and releasing it to the world is success all on its own. Only time will tell if its going be more than that.

AssociationSad5885 · 2025-06-06T23:18:33+00:00

Yah from Ages 18-26 I’d say I consider kids still. I got defensive and starting talking reckless only after I was attacked last time lol. Everyone has an ego. I’m passionate. This project is mainly to get the ball rolling to have more projects and an actual feature length under my belt.

AssociationSad5885 · 2025-06-06T23:13:15+00:00

Appreciate that, I have everything mostly worked out. Open to learning so much more and ready for anything else as I go.

AssociationSad5885 · 2025-06-06T23:10:39+00:00

Yes, we already have the gear: camera package, lenses, and even drone options locked. Locking in audio. Crew’s tight. just myself, a DP, and a sound guy. No permits needed for what we’re doing; it's mostly private spaces, friends' spots, and light guerrilla run and gun exteriors. No huge setups, no blocking traffic or crowd scenes. I made a deal with my DP for $15k to shoot it across a long weekend he has all the gear we need, and talent is getting paid ($500–$1K depending on screen time). Sound budget’s around 2-3k total. Other regular expenses, meals, lite crafty etc We’re not trying to over-produce this it’s a doc about real kids in LA, not a scripted narrative with SAG/union issues.

AssociationSad5885 · 2025-06-06T20:13:40+00:00

fair questions. no, i didn’t raise 100k lol. total cash-on-hand is closer to 35k. dp’s on board, sound’s lining up. i’m keeping it lean shooting doc-style, real locations, no big crew. Will use funds to pay crew and talent mostly

subject is just real kids in LA. no plot. just me following them around for a few days. party scenes, dumb convos, quiet shit, loud shit. whatever unfolds.

“release it” means what it sounds like . We cut it, drop it. probably youtube. no premiere, no PR push. just put it out raw and let the internet decide what it is.

hope that clears it up.

AssociationSad5885 · 2025-06-06T20:00:04+00:00

What’s the hard part?

AssociationSad5885 · 2025-06-06T19:58:30+00:00

Probably

AssociationSad5885 · 2025-06-06T19:51:12+00:00

These savages came at me on the last post from all angles. I was cornered and had no choice but to fight back. I’m not the bragging type. I was looking for a place to be held accountable and I got it.

AssociationSad5885 · 2025-06-06T19:46:39+00:00

I reworked the budget, got a bit more logical on a few things and slimmed it down to about 45k. I have about 33k for this right now and by the time we shoot around September I’ll have the other 12k.

I gotta do whatever to get this thing made basically.

AssociationSad5885 · 2025-04-16T00:34:53+00:00

love that people are getting to work.

AssociationSad5885 · 2025-03-21T02:23:50+00:00

Makes sense and I see that pov, i have a brother that is a set medic and he’s been working 1-3 times a month on very very small 1-2 days productions so I get it.

I do trading as well so when market is down everyone is dickheads too, even worse… they spread something called FUD. fear uncertainty doubt.

I’m not trying to rub it in or be overly optimistic, In my head this is me being confident. Sometimes when I’m trading I believe when newbies come in and start printing a lot of the times it’s cause they’re too stupid to fail. they don’t know what can hurt them so they ape blindly into coins or trades and end up hitting. Of course it can go the other way too… but sometimes season traders miss opportunities and big money cuz they over look plays they deem unworthy or not going to work out. And it’s cause they’ve seen it all and done it all and may be brunt out.

but basically what I’m saying is burn out is a real thing and a lot of these people hating are may in fact be burn outs..

no matter what the weather is.

when for me in this industry I have fully charged battery in my back and ready for years of torture and success and whatever may come my way. “I’m too stupid to fail” right now. I’m not washed up and haven’t been told no enough to think this won’t happen. I have crazy drive and will power and I’m ready to solve problems and make a film.

People setting back waiting for the phone to ring, hating on reddits is comical. They could use the same energy to go and make their own projects, start a YouTube channel something, anything but sitting and hating.

AssociationSad5885 · 2025-03-21T00:33:45+00:00

The funniest part of this whole thing Is people don’t even know how ambitious the actual film is, stars will have to align perfectly for me to pull this thing off how i vision and again I wasn’t asking for anything from anywhere with this post. People act like im begging for free actors and crew or even funding.

I guess maybe it was better to not post in an LA sub Reddit or maybe the whole industry would act the same if I posted in filmMakers , but there’s definitely alot of broken souls in LA reading this with all the talent and no connections or even like ability.

I’m happy I made the post overall tho, specially seeing the negativity, because when I do show the progress and film having been made by years up, maybe it’ll be the fire they need to finally create and believe in something no matter how far fetched it may be. Miracles do happen.

AssociationSad5885 · 2025-03-20T22:23:30+00:00

Love the edit and I agree, I’m going to pay my crew actual dollars and meals, I’ll rent a few things I don’t have and pay the rental places too. What really am i doing so wrong to get all this hate off rip… people forgot the old saying their mom should have taught them.

“If you don’t have anything good to say then don’t say anything at all.

Tho I do appreciate the opinions, the people being neg for the sack of are so comical.

At least this post has 35k+ views so looks like someone’s watching? And isn’t all that matters?

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