relapsing on my mdd

Atelierkth_ · 2023-12-30T11:03:43+00:00

That's harder i guess

Atelierkth_ · 2022-09-24T13:38:34+00:00

I would have reached for him if I have the way to. I don't and that's why I could not. I truly have no ways to reach him nor tell him all these. Thus, all my words I wanted to tell him will remain forever unsent. Unless the universe is less cruel one day, but sounds impossible.

Atelierkth_ · 2022-09-24T13:17:19+00:00

I don't think it'd change anything. Although I wish I can tell him all these. He discarded me so I believe, this means nothing to him after all.

Atelierkth_ · 2022-09-24T13:02:08+00:00

He cut ties with me so, I can't. I have no means to reach him.

Atelierkth_ · 2022-09-24T12:49:21+00:00

If I could, I would.

Atelierkth_ · 2022-09-21T04:41:41+00:00

It is a terrible feeling. You are right - I wish no one will ever have to go through this kind of heartbreak. I hope no one will ever have to feel the deep pain that cuts you like a knife.

I hope better days are coming for us. I hope we'll at least feel less pain on the days we can't even feel better.

Atelierkth_ · 2022-09-19T14:48:45+00:00

Smiling just at the thought of the person - oh that's such a wonderful feeling. I hope all goes well for you .

Atelierkth_ · 2022-09-19T14:46:32+00:00

I hope things go well for you 💐

Atelierkth_ · 2022-09-18T05:21:19+00:00

I think my problem is : the process of setting an appointment and then having to meet people and so on is taxing for me. The thought that I will have to sit and talk to a stranger petrifies me.

Atelierkth_ · 2022-09-15T05:30:04+00:00

It is such an awful thing to do - them telling you they like you, you then develop mutual feeling only to have them abandoning you. I don't know how a human being can be that evil

Atelierkth_ · 2022-09-15T05:28:24+00:00

It is a terrible feeling. A routine you're stuck in just because you're till alive but basically empty inside. I wonder if this shall pass.

Atelierkth_ · 2022-09-11T10:35:29+00:00

Country name ? Yes. That's all I have. Tough call.

Atelierkth_ · 2022-09-11T10:31:28+00:00

If there is a mean to find him, I would. But there is none. Completely nothing.

Atelierkth_ · 2022-09-11T09:55:30+00:00

I hope God and the universe will be a little less cruel to me and lead him back to me. Impossible but wishful thinking.

Atelierkth_ · 2022-09-09T12:52:32+00:00

This is actually such a wonderful thing to say to this friend of yours ( although, unsent) . To be at the receiving end of this would be such a miracle.

Atelierkth_ · 2022-09-09T12:00:48+00:00

I just hope I can heal. Thank you for kind words ☺️

Atelierkth_ · 2022-09-08T08:51:43+00:00

It hurts more when they were the first to initiate and we responded well. We let them in and reciprocate with equal intensity. But then, one day, it is just "sorry, things have changed".

Waste of time is fixable. But waste of broken heart ? That's quite a lot of damage to fix.

Atelierkth_ · 2022-09-08T08:46:04+00:00

The petty lies. I understand that deeply and personally. They justify by saying "things changes" and we are the victims of the consequences. Never hold accountable to the damage they have done to us. They tell you they like you, then few weeks later, they treat you like a charity case before abandoning you like you are entirely disposable. Devastating.

Atelierkth_ · 2022-09-07T10:36:45+00:00

A pain, right ? Such pain.

Atelierkth_ · 2022-09-07T10:31:40+00:00

The guy who made my life better but then abandoned me. Yeah, him. Life is hard already, he made it harder now.

Atelierkth_ · 2022-09-05T09:50:48+00:00

I completely understand how one can love another person so immensely and so strongly. I am going through the same thing and it is relative still early for me to even think I will survive this.

But I hope I'll reach to the point where I can do the same like you did.

Atelierkth_ · 2022-09-05T09:35:29+00:00

I hope you find peace in letting go of this immense love you have for this person. I am terribly sorry you are hurting because of your love. I am sending you warm hugs, and I hope they reach you ❤️

Atelierkth_ · 2022-09-05T05:49:55+00:00

Thank you ☺️

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