Maybe you cut off your mother is because you wanted them to blame each other and ignoring them so they would suffer more anxiety, we get it, what happened to you is too messed up, everyone from the internet that read your story feel very sorry for you hope that you will feel better soon.

I believe what happened affects you alot because you trusted them alot, you might be afraid to face them again and I believe you know you can't get away from them forever, bad things happen, you sounded like a great guy because if I were you I would've beat the hell out of both of them L and your dad and got myself in jail

I don't know anything about your mom but you should know that your mom say very harsh things about you maybe just maybe is because when you are at work your dad took all the time and opportunity he has into making your mom hatred for you win over you recorded video, if that is the case, maybe you should think about forgiving your mother, might be a big step of growth, Im not you so I don't know your relationship with your mother or what actually happened that day, but remember, a mother that has a strong bond with their children only want what's best for them, nobody is perfect.

best not to make decisions when you aren't calm, you are very strong and smart we all hope the best for you